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*Madelyn's POV*

I wasn't expecting the last thing I said to slip out. But it was the truth. It was good to finally get it off my chest and admit to him that he makes me happy. Sure the past few months haven't been the best, but the past 15 years have been the best because of him. My parents are taking to me more lately... Mostly about college but they have been talking to me. Mom seems to be home more and canceling plans to be around me more but I know it is just because she finally realized that hey my daughter is going off to college soon. But Harry has always been there... 

The silence was torture and I knew he didn't really know what to think or say. But I was being honest and lately, I've realized I shouldn't take the time I have with him for granted.

"Well... Then why aren't we doing anything about it?"

His words surprised me. Maybe I was overthinking the situation but I figured he would laugh and shake his head. But he says that? He says that and now I'm at a loss for words.

"What?"

"Then why are we wasting time when you're leaving soon."

"Harry." 

"Mads, I'm being serious. The next couple months before graduation is going to fly by. I know I talk about how I want high school to end and I just want to graduate but I'm actually scared shitless about it. I don't know what I'm doing... Where I'm going... Hell, I don't even know what I would major in. Everyone else has their goals and knows where they are going. My best fucking friend is leaving for the other side of America because she's amazing and so smart and deserves that. I shouldn't be selfish and make you feel like crap for saying you shouldn't leave but I just don't know what I would do without you. I feel like a loser for holding back all this time to actually be with you and now I can't have either."

Swallowing all his words made my heart beat fast. Be with me?

"Harr-"

"No, it's stupid. I'm just selfish and I don't have courage and I'm not going anywhere in my life."

"That's not true."

"Yes it is Mads!" He raised his voice some ignoring my eye contact and watching out in the ocean. "Fuck, I just really regret holding back."

"I don't understand..."

"You don't understand what?"

"What do I have to do with this?"

"Because Mads, I've liked you since I realized I could like girls. I figured dating other girls and sleeping with other girls would get my mind off you but you're always there. You do these things that make me happy and no other girl has ever done that for me. I've wasted so much fucking time living my life to something that won't even go anywhere. Now I'm starting to finally realize I could do something and take a bigger step but you're just leaving. So now I have no idea what I'm going to do."

"Harry stop, relax please." I pleaded as his hands fisted in his lap and his voice raised more. I sighed reaching for his hands. They were a bit hesitant but relaxed under my skin. "I promise you... I'm not leaving you. Sure, I won't be next door and be able to go over whenever. But Harry, I would never just leave you like that. You know how much you mean to me and I could never do that to myself or you."

He sighed with a shrug, "It's stupid."

"No it's not... We're just complicated." I mumbled with a shy laugh.

He sucked in his bottom lip and looked over at me, "So what are you going to do until you leave?"

"Well... Graduate... Probably get a Summer job to sav-"

"No. That's not what I mean."

"Well what else is there?" I laughed nervously looking over at him.

"Go out with me."

"What?"

"Go out with me."

"Harry..." I laughed letting go of his hand and leaning back.

"Seriously."

"Where is this coming from?"

"Did you not hear anything I said? I don't want to waste this time that I have left with you. Sure you'll be gone after the summer but I want to do what I've been meaning to do for the longest time."

"You're crazy talking... We can't just."

"Why not?"

"Because... I don't know. We just. We're friends."

"So that kiss was just friendly?"

"Well no, but."

"Mads."

"Harry." I whined with a shy laugh sucking in my bottom lip to hold back a blush.

"Seriously. I've been wanting nothing but to kiss you and hold your hand. It was bound to happen sooner or later but we both just kept holding back. If anything happens, hey you'll be in New York and won't be worried about living next door to your ex-boyfriend. Think of the positives."

I laughed quietly watching his hands reach over to mine, "Are you sure about this?"

"More sure than anything, Mads. I figured you knew how much I wanted to be with you."

"I had an idea but I over think a lot of things." 

"Well don't over think this and just be with me while I'm with you. I don't want to take this opportunity for granted babe." 

The word babe flowed so smoothly off his tongue and the way he was looking at me was enough for me to scream yes.

"I... Well... Okay."

"Yes?"

"Sure, yes." I smiled shyly.

"Wow, okay. Cool." He laughed back rubbing his hands on his thighs, "This is the first time I've like asked a girl to be my girlfriend to be honest."

"I'm feeling pretty honored. It'll be a weird adjustment though." I admitted with a shy shrug.

"Yeah a bit. But hey, I'm totally okay with it." Harry smiled nudging my knee.

"So now... You know."

"What?"

"You can always kiss me." I sucked in my bottom lip peeking up at the curly haired boy in front of me.

"That I could."

"Without feeling awkward." I whispered noticing him lean his body closer to me.

"Without feeling awkward." He repeated his lips closer to mine. My breath hitched at the air that danced on my skin when he talked close to me.

"Whenever you wanted..."

"Whenever I wanted." He repeated again with a smirk.

"Howeve-" Harry broke my next statement pressing his lips against mine. 

(A/N: FINALLY!!! Also I finally updated sorry about that guys. I'm going to be pretty slow on updates for the next couple weeks because my semester is almost finished and I have soo much homework and studying for finals. But it's almost the end of my first year of college which is exciting. Anyways please vote. I didn't get as many votes as I wished for on the last chapter but that's ok I hope what just happens at least encourages you to vote more and you're still liking this fic! Alsooo we reached 4k+ reads so thanks I love you guys and enjoy your week and or if you're on Spring break! PLEASE COMMENT AND VOTE I READ EVERYTHING AND HUG ALL OF YOU THAT VOTE)