We Don't Talk Anymore

Chapter 11

Play when told.

Evan's P.O.V.

I laid here in bed. The lights were off and music was blasting in my room. I was staring at a photo book that I made of when Jon and I were together.

Originally, I was going to give him after graduation day. But since he's not talking to me, I don't know when I'll give it to him.

Picture after picture were filled with Jon and I. The memories filled my head like crazy. I miss Jon, so much.

My actions got the best off me. I reached for my phone and called the one person that knows me well.

"Sorry, the number you have dialed is not available at this time. Please call again or leave a message after the tone."

Voicemail. Of course. He doesn't want to talk.

"Uhh, hey Del! I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out tonight? I'm kind of bored so if you could, call me back?" I said. I left it at that.

I hung up and decided not to try again, he doesn't want me to go near him, let alone call him.

Play song.

As I was looking through the pictures, there was one that caught my eye.

'Middle school. Jonathan and Evan.' Was written on the back.

We were at the dance. The lights were dim. Everyone had a partner. Yet, boy/girl partners. Jon and I were the only boy/boy partners.

The song that was playing that day was 'Ilusm' by gnash, god how I remember that song.

I remember whispering in Jonathan's ear was the chorus.

"Out of breath, out of time.
Is it your turn or is it mine?
I can't sleep tonight.
I can't sleep tonight, no," I whisper to myself.

Jon would smile and/or giggle every time I would sing it to him to this day. He even remembers everything.

"Just make me feel special.
And make me feel loved.
Make me feel something,
Lately, life's made me numb," I sing to myself some more.

God, I miss him so much. I really want him back. He hates my guts so much that I can't even get near him, so what was the point?

That's when I felt wetness under my eyes. I was crying. I don't care at this point anymore. I looked at the time. '9:46 PM'

Sighing, I put the photo book back under my bed and decided to go to sleep.

"Just make me feel special,
And make me feel loved," I sing some more.

"Make me feel something, lately life's made me numb.
I just want to hold you,
For just long enough.
So you don't get tired of me telling you,
I love you so much!"

"So don't make me, no
Don't make me go
Don't make me."

"In a city I don't know,
Hit me three times 'fore the show.
I need sleep tonight
You'll be in my dreams tonight, though..." I finally sing.

And that's when I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep with tears and one thing on my mind.

Jonathan Dennis.