bal (mal and ben) oneshots [completed]

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Don't play song until ya see lyrics
Mal POV

It's been three weeks since Ben and I have broken up. It's felt like months.

I'll never be able to forget the crushed look on his face after the words "it's not you it's me" came out of my mouth.

People have been telling me how heart broken Ben is and it hurts my heart that it's all my fault. Carlos told me that he just broke down randomly in front of him as they were studying one day, something about how much he misses me and when he's around Evie, Jay or Carlos I'm all he can think about. He's been calling me night and day but I won't pick up.

He's all I can think about too.

I broke up with him because I felt like it. Yes, I felt like it. I have days where I don't feel good enough for him. Days where I feel like he deserves someone much better than me. He's so good to me and I feel like I'll never be able to be there for him the way he's there for me. I'll never be able to understand why I do this stuff. I'm just so ignorant and I didn't realize how good of a man I had and I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry Ben fell in love with me.

So freaking sorry.

Ben POV
She won't take my calls.
I don't feel like myself without her.
I can't function right without her.
I hear the whispers in my head as I'm walking through the hallways.
I hear the whispers from the students in the hallways.
And I can't take it anymore.

I walk through the garden as it's lightly raining on a late Saturday afternoon. The sky is a dark gray and I'm wearing a black hoodie to match my mood for the past few weeks.

I'm tired of feeling like this, tired of thinking about how happy I was with Mal and how we could've grown old together, tired of not feeling like the Ben I was a month ago.

I see an empty bench next to a tall rose bush and I sit down on it, telling myself not to break down again because I know there's another bench on the other side of the bush, and I can tell someone is there.

I close my eyes letting the raindrops hit my face, calming me down.

It's at that time, when I here a beautiful voice, one that I've heard before, but it's hard to make out who it is in the rain.

I've missed your calls for months it seems
Don't realize how mean I can be
'Cause I can sometimes treat the people
That I love like jewelry
'Cause I can change my mind each day
I didn't mean to try you on
But I still know your birthday
And your mother's favorite song

Wait a minute...is that...

So I'm sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh

That's Mal...

I look through the small hole in the rose bush to find my purpled-haired ex singing with tears streaming down her face, not realizing anyone is around her.

I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open 'til the end