Yes, Sir || B.J.A.

-thirty nine-

I felt weird. I felt different. Not quite myself. I was in that phase where you realize that your breakup actually happened. That you're on your own now. I was used to being on my own. Being independent. But this was different. I didn't want to live without Billie Joe. It didn't feel right. But I made this mess. I had to deal with it. I had to let him get on with his life because I had to get on with mine.

I had decided to look more into Julliard. I had a scholarship after all, which was very beneficial. I was on the phone for the better part of my morning and afternoon getting everything squared away. I emailed them all of my information that was required. They had mentioned that they had already heard great things about me, making me blush and wonder how long this had been planned out by my teachers.

I unfortunately, had to enlighten them on my shitty financial situation and how I don't have any actual family to rely on for extra money. The woman I was speaking with did not hesitate whatsoever and helped me find a relatively cheap apartment in student housing. I'd be rooming with three other girls and the school would be helping me pay for it until I had enough money to support myself and pay them back.

I was gonna be paying back student loans until I was forty. Joy.

Here's hoping it will all be worth it. I was going back home to New York City.

. . .

It was the night of SWMRS show and I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. I had missed the boys like crazy. I was nervous to tell them about how I was going to Julliard. Joey, mostly. I knew he'd be happy for me. But I feel like this would be the last time I would ever be able to see them. 

It hurt to know that. But I deserved to go to college. I had to. I wasn't going to live the rest of my life being a nobody. I was going to change the world. Or at least change someone's life. 

I got out of the cab, paid the cabbie and headed into 924 Gilman. 

"Melina!" I heard someone yell. It was Joey. He was waiting outside, next to a side door. I smiled at him and walked over towards him. He pulled me into a hug. I couldn't help but embrace him instantly. 

"I didn't think you'd actually make it" he smiled sympathetically at me. 

I chuckled at this. "Yeah I can't say I blame you. I'm surprised by myself as well." 

He pulled me into him and placed a kiss on my forehead. "Well, how about I get you a drink and reunite you with the boys?" I couldn't help but smile at that. 

We walked in and Joey lead me to their room where they were hanging out before they had to go perform. 

"Prepare yourself" Joey smirked at me as he opened the door. 

The minute he opened the door, the room went quiet. Cole, Max, and Seb all looked up at me at the same time. I wanted to laugh at their expression. 

"MELINA!" They shouted in unison, and ran at me, pulling me into a group hug. I couldn't help but smile so hard at this. They were too good to me. 

"My dudes" I laughed as we all pulled away. 

We sat around, drank beer, and I told the guys that I was going to school in New York City.

"Holy shit! Julliard?! That's amazing!" Max exclaimed. 

"We're so fucking proud of you, Mel" Seb smiled, hugging me, then getting up to grab another drink. 

I looked over at Joey and while his eyes looked sad, he smiled and pulled me in for a hug. "I really am proud of you. I'm gonna miss you like hell." 

I smiled back at him. "You'll be touring the world and making a name for yourself, Joey. I'm so excited for you." 

"I'm gonna make sure we have a lot of shows in New York" he said, taking my hand in his. 

"I'm gonna hold you to that" I smiled when he lifted our intertwined hands and kissed mine. 

"You guys could literally be a god damn movie" Cole spoke up, making us all laugh. 

"Well on that note. I propose we have the best fucking night of our lives. For Melina. For SWMRS. For California. For anything really, shit I am rather high" Seb started babbling on, making us all laugh. 

And did we ever have the best night we could have possibly had. 

. . .

One month later

I was moving today. To New York City. I had already had a majority of my things shipped off already. I had my suitcase packed and my carry-ons were ready as well. 

I had said my goodbyes to Mr Way, Mr Wentz, Mr Urie. Even my aunt. That one was interesting. 

I visited my grandmother's grave one last time. I told myself I wouldn't cry. But I knew I would end up anyway. 

I did one last check around my apartment to make sure I had everything. I did. Well, almost everything. 

Billie Joe. 

I couldn't say goodbye to him. I tried to, but my anxiety got the better of me, yet again. I couldn't believe that this was my last day in California, and I couldn't even grow the balls to see him. The man who flipped my world upside down in the best way possible. He made me realize what it was like to be in love. I'd always have the memories. 

The best I could do was leave him a note on my door, in hopes that he'd stop by and see it. 

"Billie Joe,

I didn't have it in me to come see you. You're right. My anxiety controls me. I'm working on it day by day. One day I'll be normal.

I don't know if you know this, but I still love you. You're the best thing that happened to me. 

But I need to move forward. I'm going to college. Julliard. It's insane to me just thinking about it but what the hell? Gotta make a living and whatnot. 

I'm sorry that I can't take this place, I'm leaving it behind. I can't stay in California. Not without you.

I can't take this town. I'm leaving tonight. I'm sorry for ever hurting you, Billie Joe. You taught me how to live. 

-Melina"

Apparently, it took Billie Joe two days to find my note. But of course, I was long gone at that point. 

. . .

A/N: FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK THIS ONE HURT.

I'm sorry okay? But the next chapter is the last of Yes, Sir. But the sequel is on the way loves, don't you worry.

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