Code Pizza

I'm Sorry

I wandered around the set, not really taking anything in. I would randomly reach out and touch something that meant something to Macie. "What happened?" I whispered to myself. Tears threatened to fall again, but I sniffed and kept them at bay. "I've gotta go back. Jensen probably has the entire state looking for me. I mean-" A tear fell out. "At least, I hope he does." I found one of Jensen's(??) flannel and slipped it on, the familiar feel comforting me. I sighed when I thought of the hideous words that spat my way over the internet the past few days.  Many people had spread the rumor that Head Mistress never existed, that Jensen couldn't take me anymore and kicked me out. Others said Mistress was real, but still thought I had been cast aside. I had blocked as many accounts as I could, but they would just make new ones. Tears began sliding down my hollow cheeks again. Trying to wipe them, I turned to go back to Clif. 

It didn't take me long to find Clif. It was hard to miss a six foot, muscular guy just sitting in a chair. What I didn't expect was that he wasn't the only one sitting in the chair. The best parents anyone could ask for was standing with Clif. I tried not to make a sound, not even knowing how to apologize or what to do. Unfortunately, I was seen and caught. "Raelyn." Clif called my name. My shoulders sank as I turned back around. I hesitantly walked over to the trio, not making eye contact. I hugged myself as I softly spoke. "Hi." I honestly didn't even know if a hi was enough to say or if it was too much. Awkward silence hovered over us after my response. Danneel reached out a hand, stopped, decided against it, and then retracted it. "You left." Jensen angrily whispered. "Jensen-" I started but he cut me off. "No. You just left. You didn't leave a note, didn't tell anyone, just left." "Jensen," I started again. "I don't know what to say. I had to get out of there. The energy was driving me insane and I knew I would lose it if I stayed any longer." I was still hugging myself as I spoke. "Why? You could've come talk to one of us." Danneel shed a tear at the end, then wiped it away. "I know, I know I could've and I took the cowards way out. But I'm not used to all these emotions. I've never had someone want me to come to them with my problems. I've never had someone chase me down without a raised fist or any type of weapon. I panicked. I'm sorry." A sob escaped without my permission. "I'm so sorry. I'm sorry." Danneel finally reached out and pulled me in an embrace. Jensen wrapped his arms around his wife and me. 

Clif drove us back home. Once he helped me out of the car, he pulled me into his chest again. "I'm glad you stuck around." I snorted out a watery chuckle. Standing on my tiptoes, I kissed his cheek as a thank you. I waved until his red tail lights disappeared. I made my way inside and softly shut the door. Sagging up against the door, I left out a huge yawn. There are times where the pain and fatigue were ignorable, but right now was not one of those times. My eyelids fluttered shut, but I forced them open, knowing that I still had to get to my room. Suddenly, I was up in the air and safely in someone's arms. I was always loony when I'm tired, no change tonight. "No, no. You're still supposed to be mad at me. You're supposed to hit me and yell at me." I was giggling uncontrollably. My hazel eyes met vaguely familiar green ones. "I will never hit you Raelyn. I'm not like that scumbag." I lazily smiled at the nice man's words. "Well duh. You're aren't a lady anyway. Besides, even if you did, Jensen would kick your butt cause he's like my dad and dad's don't let daughters get hurt. They hug them and have parties with them and make sure that pervs aren't trying to be gross with their daughter and I think Jensen would be like that. He treats me a looot better than he should. You should talk to him about that since you're a dude and everything." I could feel his chuckle rumble through his chest. "Nah, I think Jensen is fine with how he treats you sweetpea."  I booped his nose as he laid my down in my fluffy bed. He kissed my forehead and told me goodnight. Waving lazily, I mumbled it back.