In my time of living I have never really felt love, the Genuine meaning or understanding of what it is to love. There was always this thought or visual in my head of what it could mean but it never really made sense. Nights would go by, mornings would fade into afternoon’s an the world simply seemed to leave me behind. When I first met El I knew I wanted to befriend her, I didn’t know her or where she even came from but none of that mattered to me. I saw a young girl who was lost, probably running for a while all alone in the rain. I brought her home with me not caring what anyone else thought I just cared about getting her some place warm an safe, somewhere dry. No one else understood my reasoning, Dustin an Lucas thought I was completely insane but at that time we lost our friend an we couldn’t find him, I guess the emptiness I felt was no longer when I met El. If I ever was to stand in front of a crowd to explain my story I don’t even know what I’d say or where I’d even start. I don’t think there really is a place to begin, I feel no one would believe me if I told them the truth behind what happened to Will an how Dustin, Lucas an I met El. Having El back has made me more happier then I have ever been, the pain is almost never there but the fear still is an I know that the Upside Down is still here. Will’s visions an El’s bloody noses tell me that none of this is over an that I could lose everything including El. Today I’m not sure how I feel, El an I went to get ice cream but I felt sad, sad an alone an I just wanted to pull El in close an never let go. Every time I’m outside with her I feel I have to protect her or someone or something will take her away an that feeling never leaves me. To tell you the truth I know that I’m never gonna be myself again, my mom thinks its just shock from losing El the first time an everything that happened with Will but she doesn’t know what’s out there, she doesn’t know about the demogorgen an why El disappeared so truthfully im dealing with this all alone. I wish I could to Dustin, Lucas an Will but I know they wont understand nearly enough like I need someone to.
The difference between visualizing love an actually having it is that when its gone there is always that ache an even if they come back there is always that fear of losing them again. There is always that huge difference between reality an fiction, but my love for El has made me fear losing her everyday. Having to say goodbye is something I dread everyday an that is the difference between seeing. And having.
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RomanceThis is a story from mostly Mike's point of view,getting to understand his inner feelings an the deepest parts of his emotions. Getting to know how most of these characters feel deeply instead of only getting to see the happy side of them. Join me...
