He's Too Dangerous-Zayn Malik

Chapter Twenty One- "Is it always going to be like this?"

Yashita's P.O.V

"I just want a normal life Zayn! Why can't you see that I didn't want this? I wanted you! I wanted to feel safe, secure! Now I'm frightened to even go to the shops!" I shouted, throwing something his way. Why  are we arguing, after everything? I don't even know. I guess since the whole thing with Chase, everything has bee, tense? Zayn's had more work, more jobs, more 'killings'. The only person that has actually listened to me is Harry and Justin. Liam, Louis, Zayn and Niall have constantly been moving around, ignoring the girls, not turning up to school or nothing. I hadn't seen Zayn in about a week since he said he couldn't get out of this 'lifestyle'. Then he suddenly turns up in my room, telling me how much he missed me and how much he needed me this past week. Obviously I was beyond annoyed at the fact that he could of just messaged me, or even rang me. "You can't just leave randomly and turn up unexpected, thinking everything will be okay!" I shouted, running my fingers through my hair as I nervously sat down on the edge of my bed. Zayn sighed, rubbing his face in frustration. He hasn't said a word throughout this, he's just stood back and listened, which is great an all but, I want him to fight back, I want him to plead his case at least. "Can I talk now?" He chuckled, shaking his head slowly. He took a deep breath, walking over to me. He kneeled down, making sure we were eye to eye. 

"I know I can't always be around, I know I just randomly leave and turn up without you knowing.. But you have to understand something okay? Before all of this continues.." He mumbled, looking at me as if he was waiting for me to allow him to speak. I nodded slowly, looking down at my hands instead of his eyes. "I leave randomly, and turn up unexpected because, if I told you where I was going, or let you know when I was coming back, it would be putting you in danger baby.. I don't tell you because it'll put you in harms way.. Why do you think only some of the guys go out, while Harry and whoever is left stays here? I'm doing this because I don't want to lose you, not again.." He whispered, lifting my chin up so I could look at him. By the look in his eye he truly meant it, every word. "Is it always going to be like this?" I whispered, playing with the ends of my hair. He chuckled softly, shaking his head as he took my hands in his. "Of course not princess, like I've said before, I'm figuring out a good way on how to get out of this, a safe way... For both of us.." He whispered, kissing my lips softly. I sighed happily, running my fingers through his hair. "I love you Ash, and I'd do anything to make sure your dumb ass is safe..." He joked, rubbing my cheek softly. 

"I'm sorry for shouting at you.." I mumbled, fumbling with my fingers. I do feel bad for shouting at him, I mean he was only doing it to protect me right? "When are you leaving again?" I whispered, feeling tears hit my eyes as I thought about when he'd have to leave, if he had to leave. "Not for a week, you can stay round mine tonight, if you'd like? All of us could have a movie night or something?" He suggested, his hands finding my hips, squeezing them gently. "I'd love to!" I smiled, kissing him once more before hurrying downstairs to let my mum know. Her and Tricia were sitting on the sofa once again, chatting and laughing about random things, as usual. "Mum, I'm going to Zayn's tonight if that's okay?" I smiled, sitting between them both, wrapping my arms around them. "Of course darling, what's got into you?" She chuckled, tickling my sides making me squirm. "Can't a girl be happy? Jeez.." I joked, rolling my eyes while Tricia caught on. She poked my sides, making me squeal as I landed on the floor. Blowing a piece of hair out of my face, Zayn's laugh bellowed throughout the house. "Awh, did my baby fall over?" He smirked, tickling me hard. I had tears falling down my face as I struggled to breath. "Say, Zayn is amazing, I wish to spend the rest of my life with him!" He exclaimed, tickling me even harder while Tricia and mum were laughing at the sight in front of them. "Okay! Zayn is amazing and I wish to spend the rest of my life with him!" I breathed, sitting up slowly as he backed away. I smirked, staggering to my feet as I chased Zayn up the stairs, who locked himself in the bathroom. "If you don't come out, I won't kiss you for a week!" I shouted, quickly grabbing a random pillow that was chucked upstairs by mum. I heard the door click, indicating he'd unlocked it. It creaked open, revealing a rather worried looking Zayn. I tried not to laugh as I swung the pillow towards him, sending him backwards onto his bum.  "That's not fair!" He cried, pointing up at me as I laughed. I just stuck my tongue out at him playfully, before running back down the stairs. 

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"You know, I don't know where I'd be without you.." Zayn murmured, running his hands down the length of my bare back, both of us too relaxed to care. "Why?" I frowned slightly, tracing the patterns of his tattoos, each one representing something, something mysterious and amazing. "I was in a bad place, a real bad place. Until one day, this small, scared little girl decided to move next door, and let me tell you something... She was beautiful. But I noticed the way she carried herself, so broken, so scared of falling. I tried so hard to stay away from her, to keep her out of danger.. But I wanted her so much I couldn't help myself.. I changed for that girl, changed the way I looked at things, the way I did things changed.. If I lost that girl, I'd die, not physically, but mentally I'd just shut off... I need you in my life Ash, I need you to breathe, live, love.. I love you baby.." 

Sorry this chapter was short, and that I haven't updated this one in ages, but isn't this cute?;)