✔️ The Gang Leader's Sister (gxg)

Chapter 8 - Lilian

"Why are you as red as a tomato?", Amber asked when I came to sit to her underneath our favorite tree on the school grounds.

"Uhh...", I nervously tried to find an excuse but I couldn't come up with one fast enough. Amber narrowed her eyes at me skeptically. "Spit!", she demanded.

I knew arguing with her was no option but should I tell her the truth? I didn't even know what was going on. Not even inside my head. How could it be that I liked Brooke's kiss that much? I was into boys, wasn't I?

I looked at my best friend impatiently waiting for me to tell her. Her dark eyes showed assurance and I remembered that I could tell her everything. She was always there for me so why shouldn't I tell her what was confusing me that much? I was scared that she would judge me for my unsteady feeling but deep in my heart I knew that Amber would never judge me. So I sighed heavily and decided to tell her.

"Uhh you know the new girl Brooke, right?", I started carefully.

Amber just nodded at me her beautiful blonde hair bouncing around her face.

"Well, she was over at my place yesterday to talk about the scenery for Romeo and Juliet and when we were done we watched some movies."

"Some?", asked Amber suspiciously. "How long did you watch?"

I lowered my head to look at my hands. "Brooke, kinda left at four", I told her my voice barely audible.

"Four in the morning?", Amber screeched.

I nodded. "I don't know, we just kinda forgot the time. We barely talked but it kinda wasn't needed. I'm pretty sure she was staring at me most of the time which ... felt good to be honest", I could feel my cheeks redning even further. Amber was listening quietly and I couldn't really make out what she was thinking but I think I could see a tiny smile on her lips.

"And uhh ... earlier today ... she kinda kissed me?", it came out like a question since I was so irritated about the whole situation.

With that Ambers face fell for the first time. "She what?", her voice was loud from surprise and I immediately shushed her trying to avoid attention from the other students.

"She kissed me", I whispered. "And then she apologized and said I wasn't ready, yet."

Amber's brown eyes met mine and I could see a glint of amusement in them.

"What?", I asked her suspiciously, curious what she was thinking.

She laughed and I was surprised by her answer. "I just wish we had another best friend so I could have bettet:"

I looked at her confused and when she saw my face she explained. "Geez, Lil, I can see when you're into someone no matter if that's a guy like Karter or a girl. I kind of figured it from the first day of school when I caught you staring at Brooke."

Not for the first time I was surprised that Amber knew me better than myself. But could it be true? Was I also into girls? Did I like Brooke? That way and already?

She definitely had something about her that had me intrigued.

"Stop overthinking, Lil. If it feels right let it happen, if it doesn't then don't. It's as simple as that."

Amber could make everything seem easy and that was one of the things that I loved about her.

She was right about me overthinking and Brooke was right earlier. I wasn't ready to get kissed by her and as shocked as I was when I suddenly felt her soft lips on mine, I now am willing to let my feelings lead to the point when I will be ready to get kissed by a girl. And not any girl but Brooke.

I quickly threw my arms around Amber and pulled her into a tight hug.

„Thank you", I whispered into her ear and I heard her chuckle quietly as she returned my hug. „I know I'm great in giving advice."

I giggled. „Not only for that but for respecting me even though I'm confused", my voice was still low. Amber pulled away from me and looked me in the eyes seriously. „You are not confused, you're bisexual." My gaze fell onto my lap. It was weird being that called and it was a complete change for me.

„I'm not sure about that, yet", I murmured still not really confident with that topic even though I knew I just told a lie.

„But I am", Amber said confidently with a assuring smile.

She was right. I knew that and I would sooner or later have to get used to it. Sooner would probably be easier and since I am quite good with changes it hopefully won't be that hard.

„And of course I still respect you that's self-evidently", she took my hand and gave it an assuring squeeze.

„Sadly it's not", I said. I knew about two or three people on this school who were gay and only partly respected.

Amber furrowed her eyebrows. She knew what I was talking about. „I know, but it should be!"

The school bell interrupted our serious conversation and we slowly got up. We parted since we had different classes now. When I walked inside I felt like someone was staring at me. When I lifted my gaze searching for the other one, my eyes met dark grey ones. But not the ones that I already developed a small crush on but her brother's. Boston was staring at me from his locker. His expression wasn't mean or angry, he looked as if he wanted to figure me out.

I held his gaze until he was the one dropping it. I walked to my next class unconsciously looking out for a grey colored head to cross my way. It didn't.

I felt disappointment run through me when I reached the class room without seeing her. I let myself drop to a seat and fell into thoughts instead of listening to the teacher.

I am bisexual and it is okay.

I am bisexual and it is okay.

I kept repeating that sentence to get used to the thought of it.

Three classes later school was over and I drove home with my mini, okay with the fact that I changed while my opinion about myself stayed the same.

I was thankful for the fact that I managed to go through a transition within hours that took some people weeks, months or even years.

I am bisexual and it is okay not matter what others say.

I hope you liked this chapter even though it was just kind of a bridge chapter...

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Love ya'll -May