Thy Letters

Ch 1 ~ Reminiscence

Ch 1~ Reminiscence

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At first it hurt too much to even think about him. And I cried a lot. Like cry a river, lot. And I completely and absolutely hated it.

But we hate a lot of things in our life. From getting up early for school, to cleaning our rooms, to doing homework, to eating green vegetables, to babysitting our siblings, to our bed hair. And in my case, losing a best friend.

But once we make peace with the things we hate, it gets better. And that's what I did. I made an understanding with myself that Aaron did not want any kind of relation with me. And that I had screwed up.

And it got better.

But it still hurts on some days.

Like today.

It's his eighteenth birthday today, and I'm sure that he'll be avoiding me like the plague. Not that it's something new, him avoiding me.

And how can I forget Stella Heron. I just hate her. It might be jealousy, I admit it. She's Aaron's girlfriend after all . She'll be all over him today. Flaunting him like her priced possession. And seeing them like that, makes me sick right to the core of my stomach.

I stay in bed a little later than usual. Trying to clear my head. Just then my mom pops her head into the room. "You up honey?" She asks me sweetly.

"Yes mom." I get out of the covers. "I'm just going to take a shower now."

"Ok. I'm downstairs making breakfast. Call me if you need anything." She smiles and heads back downstairs. She knows everything about me and Aaron. And she remembers that it's his birthday today.

I get up and head to the bathroom. I brush my teeth slowly, and then take a hot shower and rub my skin till it is red and blotchy. Then I wrap a towel around myself and head back to my room. I put on a song after attaching my cell to the speakers, like I do every morning while getting ready. I take out a pair of skinny black jeans and a light blue button down t-shirt from my closet and put them on. And since my dirty blonde hair is still wet from the shower and I don't really care , I leave them open and slide a rubber band around my wrist.

I pick up my bag, slide my cell into my jeans pocket and head to the kitchen. Mom is already drinking a cup of coffee and dad has probably already left for office. "Good morning mom." I greet her and she replies with a smile. I sit down on a chair near the kitchen counter top and sip hot chocolate from the mug she places in front of me.

We sit in silence for a few minutes and when I hear Natalie's car's horn, I keep the mug in the dishwasher and slide the lunch bag inside my bag. "You'll get through today." My mom says just as I am about to leave and pats my shoulder. "Be strong."

I simply nod because I'm not so sure whether I'll be fine or not.

I open the door of Nat's car and slide inside. "You okay?" Is the first thing she asks me.

"I think so." I try to give her a little smile. She stares at me for a full minute before starting the engine. I don't want to cry in front of her , because she already feels responsible for what happened between me and Aaron.

And the fact is she isn't. I'm the only person responsible for what happened. I'm the one to blame. If I hadn't developed those feelings for him, then Aaron would have been the one driving me to school this morning. I would have wished him and then hugged him.

But I can't hold it in any longer so I lean over and hug her." I miss him so much." I say while sobbing.

She rubs my back." It's okay to miss him. Just don't cry for that asshole. He's not worth it." And this makes me laugh. It's no secret that Nat hates him since that day.

"Okay." I wipe my tears. "Let's go to school before we get late." She nods and starts to drive. Once we reach the school , I check my face in the mirror just to make sure that my eyes are not red and then step out of the car. We head for our lockers, which are beside each other, and are the reason why became friends in freshman year. I take out my books from my locker for the first period which is calculus, mutter bye to Nat and head for my home room.

Once I'm there, I seat myself at the last seat, take out my calculus notes and start revising them since I have a small test in the next period and inwardly pray that everyone would just leave me alone.

But surprisingly and to my dislike someone decides to sit with me today, out of all the days in the year. "Hi!" He mutters cheerfully.

I look at him. "Hi!" I say even though I want to avoid all kinds of conversation.

"Jesse right?" He asks with a bright a smile.

"Yeah. I'm Jesse." I have seen him around the school. But I don't know him.

"I'm Noah." He introduces himself. I give him a quick smile and get back to revising my notes."So are you going to Aaron's birthday party?" My notes slip out of my hands and fall to the floor as I hear his question. He picks it up and places it on the table.

When he notices that I am not moving at all he asks. "Are you fine?" I look at him. He's kind of cute.

Wait. No. I did not just say cute.

"I'm okay. And no I'm not invited." I reply.

"I think the whole school is. And I was wondering if you wanted a ride or something. I mean if you don't have one already."

"I'm not invited." And before he can say anything else the bell rings. I gather all my stuff hurriedly so that I don't have to answer anymore of his questions."I'm sorry. I'm in a hurry. I have a test this period."

He stands up and follows me to the door. "I'll walk you to class."

"No. Thanks. I'm fine." Saying so I leave for my class.

"Talk to you later." He adds from behind. But I know that we won't be having any conversation any time soon. Because I'm going to avoid him.

Since I am so not over Aaron yet, to have any kind of a relation with any boy. Who is not Aaron.

Yeah, I know. Even though it has been a year and a half since Aaron and I stopped talking, I'm still in a muddle when it comes to my feelings for him.

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A/N

Hello everyone.

So there you have the first chapter of THY LETTERS. I hope you all liked it.

And if you did, vote and comment.

I'll try to update ASAP .

Songtothe side 'Be strong' by Fefe DobsontotallyfitsJessi'ssituation.

~Jigy