The Mad Scientist (COMPLETED)

18. Pride

River's POV

It's another morning that full of negative thoughts, nag-iisip ako, 'what if I say sorry to Khreena?' , 'why would I? Siya dapat ang mag-sorry!', my heart and brain are fighting again! Sana naman kung mag away kayo, wag niyo na akong idamay!

Pero sa tingin ko tama naman ang isip ko ee, pinahiya ako ni Khreena last time sa vigil ng ama niya, why would I right? Hindi porket babae siya e kaylangan nang parati ko siyang susuyuin, she's not even my girl!

But how about Andrea, 'will i say sorry to her?', 'why would I? when she's the one who broke my heart in the first place?' Damn! Thoughts! Kainis! Ano ba talaga ang dapat kong sundin? Ang puso ko na humble o ang utak kong ma pride!

Nasa tapat ako ng gate ng Moon Light Academy! One of this days, seing this gate makes my whole world wanted to drown, hindi ko alam kung gusto ko pa bang ma-involve dito?

Napag-tanto ko na ang isip ko't dumeretso ako sa principal's office, I will skip my first subject to do this! But my mind keeps pulling me away from the Principal's office door!

I openned the door at nakita ko si Andrea at Khreena na masayang nag-uusap, at napaka-sakit isipin na nagbago yung mood nila nung makita ako.

Tumayo si Andrea at magpapaalam na sana kay Khreena, pero I interupted her.

"Ehem! Hmm , I came her to say s--Sorry to both of you"

Parang wala lang silang narinig sa sinabi ko, tuluyan nang nagpaalam si Andrea kay Khreena. Naiwan akong nakatayo parin sa pintuan.

"Kung wala kanang ibang sasabihin Mr. President, you can go now, yung pinto pakisara. Alam mo namang air-conditioned tong room!"

"Look, khree-"

"Who gave the authority to call me in my name huh? Even if you're the President of the students council River, always remember that I am still your Superior!"

Nag-iba na talaga siya, pinagtitripan lang ba nila ako? Ba't ganun? Sinusubukan ko nang lunukin ang pride ko para lang makipag-bati, pero it's still the same! What should I do now? Dapat nga talaga sinunod ko nalang ang sinasabi ng utak ko.

Parang narinig niya ang sinasabi ko sa utak ko't sumabat siya.

"You're the only one who knows how to bring things back up again River! Because Saying Sorry alone will not turn things back to how it was suppose to be."

"Then tell me how-"

"You can go now!"

Lumabas ako sa pintuan at pagtingin ko sa oras, second subject na pala namin, History ang second subject namin, my hatest subject, hindi ko na papasukan lalo't ngayon pa na I'm really pissed off!

Pumunta ako sa room si Sky, gusto ko sanang magpaturo ng mga dapat gawin, I'm really trying to swallow my pride right now! Ngayon lang to, baka maya-maya, wala nanaman to .

"Hey Sky! Since you're a teacher in profession, can you please give me an advice?"

"Oh, River? Ikaw ba yan ? Haha! Di ko ata narinig ang sinabi mo, okay ka lang ba?"

"C'mon now Ms. Collins, I really need an advice right now, how can I prove my sincerity in saying sorry, or asking apology to someone?"

"Ikaw ba talaga yan River? Haha!"

"I'm not kidding here Sky!"

"Oh, really ? Haha! Sige, my only advice is that, only you can prove your sincerity"

Umalis ako bigla sa room at nag murmur! 'How can I suppose to know what they are talking about? Bakit ba puro logic sinasabi nila, I know nothing about womens, I'm a loner type of guy, so how will I know about that?'

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Break time na namin, but actually vacant namin yun so its still considered.

Pumunta ako ng cafeteria at lumapit sa table ni Andrea. I'm so thankful dahil di siya umalis, baka kasi mapahiya nanaman ako.

"Hey! Hmm , Ms. Secretary."

"Hmm?" Sumagot siya ng di manlang lumilingon saakin.

"Look, I really don't know what I did wrong to you, so can you please-"

"Because you're a man who don't care of what the others feel, you only care about what you feel!"

"Kung ano man yun, di ko na matandaan Andrea, pero Can you just forgive me please?"

Maypinahulog siyang baso na glass at sinabi.

"Look, even if I say sorry to this glass it will never turn back into being a glass anymore, and trying to assemble it again will just make me hurt"

Nganga ako sa sinabi niya, wala akong maintindihan, may sarili ba talagang lenggwahe ang mga babae?

"Hindi mo naintindihan? What I really mean is, saying sorry will not bring back what is broken, nor straighten the crumpled"

Nganga ulit ako.

"You still don't understand it, don't you? You're the only one who can resolve the given problem, just give some time to find the solution"

Math naman ngayon sinasabi niya! Ano ba talagang problema ng mga babaeng to?

"It's like experimenting Mr. President, you'll not get the result in just one try."

Science! Baka may history pa to, uso ba logic ngayon? Wala kasi akong idea sa pinagsasabi nila ee, sa dami ko bang iniisip ngayon.

"Look Andrea, pwedi ba tama na ang logic mas lalo pa akong naguguluhan ee"

"What I really want to tell you is; kung di mo kayang halunkatin ang nakaraan, di ka makakahanap ng solution para sa kasalukuyan!"

History na nga. Siguro sinasabi niya na kaylangan kong pumasok sa history! Langyaa wala talaga akong maintindihan.

"Kahit alin sa mga sinabi mo Andrea, wala akong maintinduhan ni isa! Nilunok ko ang pride ko, at nagbabakasakaling magkakaayos tayo. Pero ngayon narealize ko na mas mabuti pa sigurong pabulain ng todo ang pride ko, kaysa lunukin ito, mabubulunan lang ako lalo na kung bareta pa ito! Boom time!"

Nganga si Andrea sa sinabi! Ha! Akala niya siya lang ha.? Nakabawi din. Whoosh! Narinig kong nagsigawan ang mga studyante sa paligid.

'Whoooo! Booom! Nice mr. President!'

Natawa lang si Andrea sa sinabi ko, at parang mas gusto niyang makita akong nasasaktan.

"Look Andrea, I'm saying this deep down in my heart"

Kumuha ako ng kutsilyo at tinutok ang talim nito sa pulso ko

"If seing me hurted like this will make you happy then, I will stab myself just to see you smile"

"If you think that hurting yourself will make things work, you're wrong! You can't prove your sincerity by making the other people feel consience"

Langyyaa di pa rin nagwork! Boost up pride activated!