Engaged To An Rockstar

Second Thoughts

''Okay so I think that for this wedding it's should be exclusively private considering Ezra celebrity status you know.........'' That was the last thing I heard until my mind dift off into my own private thoughts. I know that Mom and Dad marriage have been in the rocks ever since.......well ever but I didn't really think that they'll get a divorce, I always thought that they stick together because after all isn't that what marriage is?

          But the biggest question is Does Dad know? and if so how long? Mom and Dad relationship lasted for years even in the public eye and now it's all over the magazines as thousand maybe even millions of people are talking about it. As most paparazzi are pressuring Adam and Camille to talk about it and as they did in most interview they simile nodded and say ''Everything would be fine what's most important is that our family is together regardless whats happened in the future''. Which makes me wonder  if they too have known? 

But does that mean for Ezra and I? Would we get a divorce later in the future? Would we fall apart? Soon I was picturing the worst possible scenarios that could happen me cheating on Ezra or Ezra cheating me vice versa. Our reactions towards it our face full of rage, me crying in tears, we shout some words that couldn't be unsaid we................

''Ashley'' said a voice that jerked me out of my thoughts I looked around seeing a small office with opened windows that exposed a naked sky while smelling fresh brewed coffee nearby. I looked at the lady whose was holding some fabrics in her hands she looked like she had it all. Wearing a crisp clean suit, makeup on,  manicure nails without a chipped in place, and lastly her simile that say ''I could make your dreams come true'' and right next to her was a big whiteboard that says in big bold exciting letter ''Ashley and Ezra'' like it's a tittle for a TV show. 

''Ashley?'' asked my mom holding my hand giving me a concerned glare ''Are you okay?'' then soon I felt a warm hand on my knee knowing its Ezra flashing a concerned look at me. But I shook my head an walked away from the office, my mom, Ezra and everything else as I got in the car and drove off into the unknown. 

I ignore the dozen of calls and texts from everyone as I drove down the blank road to be honest I didn't really known where I was heading but I had a feeling too where I wanted to go. I parked in the driveway of a cabin far off in the woods and everyone else the key was underneath the welcome mat and I just let myself in embracing the musk smell of nature and the warm sunlight bouncing through the window realizing that this is where I needed to be even if it's for a little while. 

Ezra Pov 

As the wedding planner was speaking I notice Ashley was looking distraught, unfocused as if her mind was somewhere else. I thought that she had the nervous jitters with the wedding planning and all but I had a feeling that's it's something more then that. Eventually Ashley mother called her and she was shook away from her thoughts as she looked around unfamiliar of this place. 

''Ashley'' her mother said approaching her like a little child ''Are you alright?'' she asked  and I watched her shook her head as she walked out of the office. Immediately Ashley mother and I follow her out calling her name but she just continue to walk out and drove off into god knows where. 

And so yet again here am I calling her for the tenth time 

''God would you stop please? I'm trying to watch TV'' said Frankie flipping through random channels hugging a bag of chips laying on my bed 

''I'm calling Ashley she not picking up'' I said hearing her voicemail  once again 

''Look'' Frankie said snatching my phone ''even I would not answer you if you kept calling me like that she going to be fine'' 

''And what if she not? What if she laying at a ditch in god knows where?'' I said looking at window searching for Ashley car anywhere 

''Stop'' Frankie said grabbing my elbow ''You sound like a parent'' he mumbled soon I hear rumbling from the sky as I looked out the window I saw a flask of bright light and raindrops dancing on the rooftops 

''She my fiance Frankie and I love her what you except me to do? Sit here and do nothing?'' 

Frankie shrugged his shoulders ''Yeah'' 

I sighed putting on my coat and shoes while grabbing my car keys 

''What?'' Frankie said eatting a chip 

''You know what? Your're a ass'' I walked downstairs hearing Eli barking nearby and the front door being closed shut I started the car hearing the other car door opened seeing Frankie get in along with Eli in the backseat. 

''What? you didn't think that we just leave you right?'' he said playing with the radio ''Your're still a ass'' I mumbled backing out the driveway Frankie just laughed ''And it took you years to figure it out''