Its Stormy in Seattle

How I Really Feel

A/N- Hey guys, I know the last chapter wasn't the best, but I will try to make this one better. Thank you-Kheroko

Merediths POV

I walked away from the coffee cart, my stomach churning, nose burning, and eyes watering. I could feel him watching me as I walked away.

I can't believe him. Why the hell can't he just leave me alone. I thought as I hurried to the nearest bathroom. "Dr. Grey?" I heard Addison's voice call as the bathroom door closed. "Yes Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd?" I said sniffling. "I was wondering if you wanted in on my TTTS case?" Addison asked through the stall door. "Why are you asking me this? Shouldn't you hate me?" I said my voice shaking. "Dr. Grey, I am asking you because you are one of the best interns in this hospital, and you still have a lot to learn... my surgery starts at 10, I want the patient prepped and ready at 9:30" Addison said sternly. "Fine" I said as I unlocked the door and stepped out of the stall to wash my hands and splash cold water on my face.

***In the intern locker room***

"All right everybody, rounds started five minutes ago!" Baily barked at us. As we began rounds I was assigned to Addison's service because she 'Requested' me.

I stood at the nurse's station nearest to the patient's room looking over her chart. As I looked up I saw Derek walking towards me. I quickly put the chart away, turned on my heel and headed for the stairs. I headed up to the O.R. floor and found Cristina as she came out of an open-heart surgery with Burke. "Cristina!" I said grabbing her arm and dragging her into a storage room with me. "What Mer" she said slightly irritated. "I need your help, I'm on Addison's service and Derek won't leave me alone, not to mention I'm pretty sure I have the Flu..." I said rambling on. "Mer" Cristina said putting her hand on my arm as my eyes started to water. "Hey, Mer it's gonna be okay, I will always be here for you" Cristina said. "Okay, we should get back to work" I said sadly. "Yeah..." Cristina replied.

***In the cafeteria***

I was sat by myself my notebook opened as I doodled in it. I had decided against eating, for I wasn't hungry. I sat there for 20 minutes drinking half a bottle of water when Derek walked into the cafeteria and looked around. Once he had seen me he made his way over to my table and sat down. I didn't run or cry I just sat there. "Hey Meredith, can I talk to you?" he said. "I have a feeling you are going to anyway" I said solemnly. "I just want to know if you are okay. I just want to help you" he said as he gave me the McDreamy look. "Dr. Shepherd you cannot help me, and you just need to leave me alone because I AM FINE" I said as tears started to well up in my eyes. I put my head down on the table and sobbed quietly. "Oh Mer..." Derek said putting his hand on my shoulder and sat with me for about three minutes before I stood up and walked away, tears streaming down my face. "Meredith" Derek called after me. "I have to ho prep a patient" I said as I looked at my watch to see it was 9:00. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into a storage closet and pulled me into a hug and held me close. "Derek... please let me go" I said pulling away from him, "just leave me alone" I said looking into his eyes. He looked at me in the McDreamy way and I just collapsed into his arms. "you are very flushed" he said as he held me close. He put his hand to my forehead. "You should probably check to make sure you aren't running a fever" he said in a concerned tone. "Yea, I haven't been feeling that great this week... now I have to go and prep a patient for surgery" I said turning and walking out of the storage closet.

Dereks POV

Why can't I get her out of my head, I CHOSE ADDISON. WHY CAN'T I GET MEREDITH OUT OF MY HEAD? I just really hope she is okay. I thought as I watched Meredith storm away from the coffee cart.

***after the interns have been assigned***

I had just finished an emergent craniotomy and was headed for the nurse's station to check my patients chart. As I rounded the corner I saw Meredith filling out a chart. She looked up and held eye contact with me for a few seconds before running off. Why in the world does she keep running from me? Why won't she just talk to me? I thought as I picked up the pace and hurried to the nurse's station, picked up my patient's chart, and hurried after Meredith.

***In the Cafeteria***

As I walked into the cafeteria I looked around and saw Meredith sitting alone at a table. She looked sickly. I walked over and spoke with her and she rushed out of the cafeteria and rushed down the hall. I caught up with her and pulled her into a storage closet. Her skin felt burning hot and her face was flushed. All I wanted was to help her. After hearing that she was sick all I could think about for the rest of my day was how she was doing.

A/N-Thank you all for reading and I would like to hear your feedback and thoughts on this story-Kheroko.