Prologue
"If things don't turn out what you planned it doesn't mean God wants you to lose and quit. Maybe he has got a better thing planned for you rather than what you planned for yourself"
Meet Adam Parker who thinks his every observation...
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I am leaving and that is for good. There are so many reasons to it. Maybe the line 'it's not you, it's me' sounds pathetic and cliché to you but it is what the truth is.
I am scared to know the answers, to the question that have been lingering in my mind since the day, I saw you. But both the ways it feels wrong to me, so wrong. I thought, if I would say I love you to you than it would be wrong to Nathan, whom I promised a forever. But I still fell for you. But you know, what Daniel said? That, I am doing more wrong to you. Because I don't know myself, if I love you Adam or the Nathan that I see in you.
But there is more terrifying thing than that. I am afraid of losing you, like I did him. Everyone calls Nathan's death, an accident. But it wasn't. How do I know? Funny thing, you ask. Because I KILLED HIM. It is me because of which the Wilson's are having their dinner without their son. That was all my fault. You know, everybody calls me Anna except for him. He called me Belle. He said that for him, I was no less than a princess. But, I turned out to be the beast. I am bad omen. I kill everybody who loves me. My grandpa, my parents and then Nathan. I am a Bloody Murderer.
I don't want my dark shadows to loom over you and destroy you in the process as it happened with him. I don't want Jordon and Catherine to lose their son. Because, I know the pain is unbearable. Fate destined me to be alone. I would cherish all the memories, I made with you and everybody else. Don't go looking for me, Adam because I am trying to save everyone from the damage.
Annabelle
It's Friday night today. Two days since Anna left. I have been faking a smile and pretending to be okay.
"Are you okay?" Jessica asked me in the morning at the school.
"Yeah, absolutely fine. Why do you ask?" I lied.
"I think you know why, man." Ryder said, holding Jess by her waist.
"We know, how you are feeling about Anna leaving us. You can be lying but we know you." Jess said, looking at me with concern.
"I am fine, guys. Stop it. And please, carry on your PDA somewhere else." I snapped at them, banging the locker shut. I walked away from them and came home. I ditched the rest of my classes, just to stay in the comfort of my bed. I have been reading her letter over and over again to understand every bit of it. I Killed Him, it says. She holds herself responsible for Nathan's death but why?
I feel hollow, everytime I read it. She feels as if she the reason for the bad happening to people around her. I still wonder, what did ever happen with her? The question is still itching in my mind. But this time, I am not going to assume things myself. I heard a knock on my door and mom peeked in. I stuffed the letter in my pocket.
"Adam, we are leaving. We have to be at the orphanage tomorrow, it's important otherwise we would stay." She said, sitting next to me. She cares for me and couldn't see me like this.
