Found~Spamano

Chapter nineteen

As numerous thoughts ran-a through my head, I thought about going back to the musical bastards place for more information, just needing to know what-a Spain had-a wanted instead of me, and needing to know if Feli had-a chosen yet.

So, I waited until nighttime to figure something out, and to-a of course sneak out.

I couldn't have Feli knowing what
was-a going on, he would immediately go to that musical bastard and his wife! I-a just know it! I had to get there and find out more things before it was too late, and Feli would make the choice.

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Later that night, I tip toed down the hallway and peered in the living room. I-a found Feliciano snoring happily on the couch, while watching the all night pasta channel. I-a carefully tip toed towards the front door and opened it very quietly, before closing it behind me softly.

I stepped out and breathed in the night air around me, glancing up at the moon afterwards, I wondered if this was what I really needed to know.

I thought for a moment.

"They've been-a keeping secrets from me! I-a do need to know what's happening." I said to myself, determined to know right away.

I went down the darkened street, trying to find that house again. I looked everywhere along the sidewalk when I-a finally spotted it at the end of the road. I-a hurried towards the side and leaned up against it, thinking of what I-a had to do to get inside.

I thought for a few seconds when an idea popped into my mind. I flinched a bit, of how much it was going to kill me inside, but I-a had to know what was going on. I-a did have a right you know.

I walked carefully around the house back to the front, before sighing and reaching up towards my curl on the left side of my head. I nervously grabbed it, a quick shot went though my body. I shivered pleasantly and breathed in and put before biting my lip and pushing it down. I let out a gasp and shivered once more before tucking it under my ear. I moaned a bit before going to the right side of my head and grabbing another strand up hair and forcing it upright.

I frowned and carefully closed my eyes, but left them open enough to see. As I squinted, I carefully headed towards the musical bastards door and knocked.

A shuffle of footsteps was heard as I opened my eyes a bit to see better.

"Italy? OHH! Italy! Oh hallo my little darling!" An ecstatic woman's voice said happily and hugged me tightly.

I froze a bit and hugged back forcefully, trying to act as happily as I could.

"V-Ve?....Yeah! Ve~ Hi!" I said enthusiastically and grinned crookedly.

"Italy? Your hugs seem so cold!" Hungary complained.

"V-Ve! I-a just feel a little low tonight!" I mimicked Feliciano's voice.

"Oh! Sveetie! Vhy?" She asked in concern as she pulled me inside.

I squinted around for the Musical bastard and in my relief he wasn't there.

"Where's-a the musi- Master Austria?" I asked.

"Oh you know him, he's-a complaining about Prussia again." She muttered in reply.

"He's upstairs right now cleaning up his mess. Anyvays! Tell me sveetie, vhat are you so upset? Did somevun hurt you? Do I have to kick zheir ass?" She asked with an angry expression.

I nervously shook my head.

"N-No! Nothing like that. I-a was just thinking of random questions tonight, and I-a was hoping you would answer them!" I said, trying to be ecstatic once more. 

"Really? Oh zhat's fine! Ask avay my sveet!" She said happily and had sat down at the table.

I sat beside her and cleared my throat.

"When-a Spain took away big brother Romano, did-a Spain really want Romano?" I asked, a little worry in my voice.

Hungary was silent for a moment, making my anxiety grow higher.

'Oh-a god. She knows it's me! Oh god oh god!' I thought worriedly and glanced at the front door and tried to think of a quick escape when she answered.

"Nien. I guess I should tell you zhe truzh. Spain vanted you, Italy. But Austria already signed zhe papers for you. I'm afraid Spain didn't vant Romano at all." She murmured and patted my hand.

I froze, feeling everything seem to crash down all around me. I had felt my heart sink deep deep down in my stomach and I sat there, ready to burst at any moment. I quietly trembled as Hungary went on.

"He even tried trading Romano for you. It vas quite sad really. Romano had no idea, und I don't vant you telling him." She scolded.

Too late.

I swallowed my sadness and breathed in and out.

"I-I....see..." I muttered. 

"Do you need to know anyzhing else?" She asked.

I looked away.

"I....I-a don't think so....not at the moment." I murmured.

I heard her sigh.

"I know, I'm sorry for telling you Italy, but it was for zhe best, besides, Spain...." I tuned her out and thought about how much of a burden I was to him. And how-a much he didn't want me after all.

Who would want a broken country anyways, everything about me is lost. Even after all these years, these centuries, I bet he-a wouldn't even look for me if I disappeared. I bet he doesn't even care to this-a day.

My country, my brother, everything. 

Lost. That's-a all I will be.