Luca's Challenge

Chapter 11. Bad trouble

I sit here after a few minutes of crying out in pain. This has got to be the worst way of torture, I'm probably not intoxicated anymore because I have cried out 75% of my bodies fluids out.

I sit here remember all the memories with him because there were no bad ones, every memory of him was amazing. He makes me so happy, or use to. My favourite memory of him was when my brother use to put him in his room because I quote 'it's my dog' he would say, not only did he want to come out because he wanted to be with me but because he needed to take a shit, so in the middle of the night Shadow took a massive shit in the middle of Caleb's room which he woke up to.

A sad laugh escapes me which sounds more like a bigger sob.

Losing my best friend at such a young age hurts but, I being the one who did this to him is 100 times worse. I must be counted as a murderer now? Isn't it manslaughter? I hurt him but it was an accident, I let my anger get the best of me and let the best thing in my life get hurt.

It was very cold outside freezing, only being in your sports bra and pants doesn't help. The cold did affect me but I don't deserve anything right now, I don't deserve to be warm or to have a home, I don't deserve to be happy or people having sympathy for me. I deserve nothing, all I want is my Shadow back, my baby.

To busy sobbing in my hands I feel a pair of arms wrap around me with a piece of cloth.

Opening my eyes I see Luca placing his jacket around my shoulders with the most sympathetic look he could muster.

"I'm sorry Lex." he says looking at me right in the eyes while zipping up his jacket on me. Never breaking eye contact with me.

"You're sorry? Are you serious? I killed him! I flipped that table on him, I smashed that table on him because I wasn't strong enough to handle my emotions." I say this without looking at him.

"Look at me Lex." he says sternly.

"No." my voice comes out lower than a whisper.

"Don't you understand? He is my life, he was my life and I did this to him. How do I live with that guilt?" I say as more tears roll down my cheek. I honesty don't care what I look like in front of Luca right now, I probably look like a hobo begging for money on the side of the street with a tear stained face with no hope in my eyes.

I can't look at him, I'm broken. No one has ever seen me like this, no one except Caleb and now he hates me.

The thought of him makes a few more tears slip out. I have lost so much in the past few hours. Caleb, Shadow, any family, my dignity and part of my soul.

Luca gently placed is hands on either side of my head.

"Please stop crying." he asks this so desperately.

He pulls my head up so it's facing him.

"Open your eyes Lex, this isn't going to be easy to overcome so start now by opening your eyes, show me you are stronger, show me those beautiful eyes of yours."

I slowly open them, only to be met with his same crystal blue colored eyes as mine.

"Tell me what has happened? What has he said about him?" I sound so desperate, but who wouldn't in this situation.

"I don't think you are ready to here that."

Taking this in, I take a shaky breath out, these words rush through my head over and over again.

"Tell me Luca, I need the truth. I can take it, I did this to him so I should know the consequences to my actions." I say.

"I'm not going to lie to you and say that he will be alright because he doesn't look good." he says gently.

My heart shattered, literally just broke.

His eyes show so much pity and remorse it looks like it's hurting him just as much as it's hurting me.

"Please stop looking at me like that." I say in a whisper.

"Like what." he replies.

"Like you're giving me the most sympathetic gaze on earth anyone could muster." the trail of tears are still spilling from my eyes, to his jacket which is on me and now dripping off from that. It seems as if I can't stop them.

"Lex, what do I say? I feel sorry for you because there is nothing I can do to help, I know saying sorry won't fix anything so there is no point in saying it but don't blame this on yourself, it was a complete and utter accident." he says this while taking his hands off my face.

I say nothing, because I can't be bothered to argue. What's the point? He's just going to say something to contradict what I say and I just don't have the energy left to fight him.

"Can I please have.... Ughh... Minute to myself please?" I hate crying in front of people. And I don't want to cry in front of him anymore because he is the new topic of the school, he will probably end up telling everyone and that's all I need at the moment.

"Yeah sure, but I'll be back in a few minutes so don't go anywhere."

And with that he stands up and leaves me in my own pit of despair.

If Shadow makes this out alive I will be amazed, because of the amount of blood that came out of him and the amount of blood on me it amazes me to even think he is still alive, I've never seen this much blood in my life.

But even if he does live, what quality of life will he have? Will he be disabled? Will he be able to walk? I can't even think of that, taking that away from someone and having to live with the pain everyday to see his eyes looking at me with so much love knowing that I was the one who did that to him.

Walking over to a tap, I crouch down and start to wash off all the blood on me, taking off Luca's jacket I start to rub my skin furiously. I scratch and scrub my skin until there is no trace of Shadow's blood but instead of his blood there I see patches of my own blood seeping from my skin.

Swearing under my breath I stand up and throw Luca's jacket back on, just standing here thinking about what I have done.

Moving towards the vets door I feel someone grab my wrist and slam me into their body, turning to see who it is I have no idea. Seeing their faces I don't recognise them.

"Come with me little girl." he sneers.

Hearing this I scream, I scream out for Luca or anyone who can hear. I thrash against his body throwing punches and kicks everywhere.

In my peripheral vision I see Luca running towards me from the front door of the vet, trying to distract the man from Luca I kick him where the sun don't shine.

This kick seems to have made the man let go of me, until Luca comes in delivering the best punch I have ever seen. The man falls back onto the ground with a thud.

"Who is he?" Luca demands.

"I-I don't know" I honestly don't.

"Well we have to leave now." Luca says.

I say nothing because I agree.

Not until I realise that I'm not leaving my dog here alone.

"I'm sorry to break it to you but I'm not leaving my dog here alone without me, I caused this and I will try to fix it." keeping my ground.

Luca grabs my wrists and pulls me.

"Let go of me." I struggle in his grasp.

"Lex your not thinking straight, you just had someone attack you and you have no idea why."

Staying my ground, I don't move.

Not until I see 4 buff men stalk towards us. Luca's grip tightens on my wrist incredibly hard, I don't cry out even though it's hurting like a bitch, I hide it. Looking at Luca he seems to have seen them too and has the same look on his face as I do, the 'run now face or we are going to die'.