Bogo Shipda

20. If you

Jungkook POV

I start walking nervously back and fort as I am in the waiting room before going up. I'm appearing on the show 'The King of Mask' and I'm about to sing this song from BigBang~ if you.

As I walked up to the stage...people are clapping their hands. They don't know who I'am because of the mask ofcource.

I start singing.

geunyeoga tteonagayo
naneun amugeotdo hal su eopseoyo
sarangi tteonagayo
naneun babocheoreom meonghani seoinneyo

meoreojineun geu dwitmoseupmaneul baraboda
jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda
sigani jinamyeon tto mudyeojilkka
yet saenggagi na ni saenggagi na

IF YOU IF YOU
ajik neomu neutji anhatdamyeon
uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka
IF YOU IF YOU
neodo nawa gachi himdeuldamyeon
uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka
isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

{English lyrics

She is leaving
And I can't do anything
Love is leaving
Like a fool, I'm blankly standing here

I'm looking at her, getting farther away
She becomes a small dot and then disappears
Will this go away after time passes?
I remember the old times. I remember you

IF YOU IF YOU
If it's not too late
Can't we get back together?
IF YOU IF YOU
If you're struggling like I am
Can't we make things a little easier?
I should've treated you better when I had you}

I closed my eyes as I keep singing and thinking about the day I left you five years ago. How are you y/n? Did you moved on? Are you really fine?

I still miss her every single day. Her smile, her scent, the look in her eyes, her touch, her presence. It hurted me to leave her that day. I was so cruel towards her. I just hope she is doing great now.

Flashback to the break up with y/n

I just broke up with y/n. I just let go the love of my life. I'm feeling terrible. Just the horrify look in her eyes hurts my heart. I so sorry y/n. She always be in my heart. I will never stop loving her.

''Ssst...things will be better. And maybe if you believe in faith you guys will meet again'', Taehyung said.

''I don't know hyung. You didn't saw her. She was completely heartbroken'', Jungkook said crying while sitting on the couch.

"I couldn't stand it anymore. It was hard to not let the tears fall so I just left fast. I could hear her cry, asking me why...why I did that to her. I feel broken inside hyung. I feel lost in this world without her''.

End of flashback

The song has ended as a single tear escaped from my eye, but nobody will know since I'm still wearing this mask.

After I got some nice comments about my singing I went off stage. I see my wife waiting for me. She smiled as she approches me.

" You did a very good job oppa", she said and pecked my lips.

Yess I did married Lisa. It's more like I didn't had a choice. She is now miss Jeon. But marrying her isn't that bad. She takes her responsibility as a wife and I try to take my responsibility as a good husband. We don't really have that typical 'love' relationship husband and wife normally have. You know it's hard moving on. I'm still in love with y/n. But I have to move on. Lisa is very patient with me. She never complained at night when I come home totally drunk. I did that to release the stress I have. And right know she is pregnant with our first child. I know what you are thinking...what can I say..after all I'm a man and I have my needs. And besides that I should treat Lisa better. It's not fair towards her feelings, but somehow I just can't forget about y/n.

"How are you feeling Jagiyaa? Do you still have to trow up a lot?", I asked.

"Yah but the doctor said that is normal since I'm only pregnant for two weeks", she said.

"Well tell me if you need anything", I said.

She kep hugging me as silence took over...then suddenly she releases from my arms.

"Oppa you thought about her isn't it? I m-mean while singing the song?", she asked.

"I won't lie to you. I was thinking about her. But I also realise I have to move on.....especially when we are expecting a baby. I always wanted to be a father. Now that your are pregnant I finally have purpose to live. I'm sorry Lisa...I truly am sorry. It will take time to really love you whole hearted...", she just nodded in understanding like she always have.

Lisa POV

I'm pregnant with his child, maybe now he will love me. It's hurtfull to hear his heart beating for someone else. To see his eyes sparkling only for her. But I understand. I'm a kind hearted person. I just hope that one day me and Jungkook will be happy together as reall couples. He is very nice and treats me well...but he still can't forget about y/n. Don't I deserve happiness? I'm really happy being with the man I love, but I'm also sad knowing he doesn't feel that way.

Your POV

"Jason?.....Jason?", I scream from downstairs.

"What is it Jagiyaa?"

"I think want to go back to Seoul and visit my mom. I haven't seen her in years I said. The last time I've seen her was when she helped me giving birth to Jongsung. Besides that we have this award show to attend", I said.

" Oke let's go next week. Jongsung will have summer vacation and we can spend our summer there. How about that?", Jason said.

I smiled, " I think that is a great idea".

~ You have to attend a award show in Seoul. It's about charities and you are nominated for the humanitarian award for creating a foundation that helps poor children to get education ~

To be continue.

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[A/N: sorry if this is a short chapter]