Let Go ✎ exo d.o kyungsoo

제 27 장: Forgive Me

KYUNGSOO'S P.O.V.

The next day after practice, I sat at the same spot as yesterday, under a tree that loomed over my body and a playground. The shade kept the sun from hitting my body and gave a chilling vibe.

Suddenly, I heard an awfully familiar voice that I didn't expect. Glancing over to the source, I cringed.

"Oppa! Buy me ice cream!" Yeon Ah yelled as she clung onto a guy's arm.

I scoffed and watched her in disgust. "Not too long ago she was on her knees begging for me to come back to her and now she's walking in a park with her new boyfriend." I said lowly to myself. She seemed happy as if she wasn't hurt. What an attention seeking snake.

Out of anger, I stood up from my seat and walked over to the couple. As they sat down at one of the park benches, I went up to them and stood in front of Yeon Ah with my arms crossed.

My eyes were nothing but cold, yet when the girl's gaze met with mine, her eyes lit up.

"K-Kyungsoo!"

I let out bitter laugh, making her flinch back. The man who she was with sat beside her in silence, however he was stiff.

"I can't believe you." Were the first words that came out from my mouth. "No, I can't believe myself." I once again bitterly chuckled to myself. "I can't believe that I was actually going to give a second chance to a snake like you."

I uncrossed my arms and took a deep breath in. "I hope you two will live a happily ever after." I said without a sign of sarcasm.

"Wait! Kyungsoo!"

Without replying to her, I walked away in annoyance. I walked and walked until I stood at the very front of EXO's dorm. Yet it seemed like I was glued to the floor.

"They were right..." I whispered as I thought back to the others warning me about her and guilt hit me hard. I should've listened to them and I acted stupidly.

I felt that it was a slightly good feeling though. Because that was the only hurtful thing I felt as I watched the new couple and I wondered to myself...

... why didn't I feel hurt about being betrayed by Yeon Ah again? It was a different feeling. As if all my feelings from her disappeared. As if we were no more than strangers.

My heart was telling me to let go, yet my brain was urging me to continue. To continue hurting myself and love someone who will never love me. To continue to hold onto something that exis-- no... To hold onto something that never existed.

The thought of it somehow brought tears to my eyes. I didn't realize until I felt something warm and wet on my cheek. I also didn't realize that someone was in front of me until I felt a pat on my shoulder.

"Hey D.O..." Xiumin smiled.

He knew exactly why I was acting this way. Even though everyone in EXO has a tight bond, Xiumin was the only one who could read everyone as if they were an open book. We all assumed that it's because he lived longer and probably survived a war or something.

"Aha! I know what you're feeling." He smirked mischievously. "As I've said, I know why you're going through."

"They say if you love two people at the same time, you should choose the second one because if you really loved the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second." Xiumin's words rang through my head as he held onto my shoulders securely.

"My child, Kyungsoo," Xiumin started off, trying to release a hint of humour.

"Love isn't just a feeling. It's a choice."

I gave him a small smile. "You really are wise, hyung. Did you have a chance to see the dinosaurs when you were my age?"

"Are you trying to get a death wish?" Xiumin asked playfully.

"You should be greatfull because your hyung is the only one that keeps the family sane." Xiumin said then laughed at himself. "Don't tell Suho I said that or else I'll be grounded."

I chuckled then spoke, "It's still my fault though. I'm sorry. I should've listened to you guys. I thought I didn't need support."

"Whatever pain you're going through means that we'll get through it together because we are--"

"Hyung! Don't finish that sentence! It's cringy." I grimaced then looked away.

"Yah! Respect your hyung." He scolded and hit my arm.

A few moments passed by before Xiumin spoke up again.

"So..." He cleared his throat. "When are you going to confess?"

"Confess what?"

"Don't play dumb with me, Do Kyungsoo. Confess to Haneul!" Xiumin yelled in an obvious tone.

"What?!" I asked in shock as heat rushed up to my cheeks. Out of all things he could've asked...

"I'm not repeating myself." Xiumin jokingly said stubbornly.

"I-I don't know... I'm afraid of rejection." I said lowly.

"Of course you are! It's a part of life! Don't be afraid." Xiumin said assuringly. "And besides," He wiggled his eyebrows. "it's more than obvious that you both are blind in love with each other."

I looked down at the grass in thought, whether I should believe him or not.

Xiumin sighed. "If it makes you feel better, I leached information off of Sehun and he said that she told him that she likes you."

A smile was forming on my lips for a moment by listening to hyung's words.

"Come on, let's go inside. The members are itching to see you!"

Xiumin walked up to the door, leaving me behind, but before he could touch the door nob, I suddenly said,

"What... what if they don't want to accept my apology? I mean, I was being a jerk..."

"You think too much!" Xiumin complained. "Did you not hear me? They're itching to see and talk to you. Everyone misses you... Even Haneul." He wiggled his eyebrows once again towards me.

"Stop! You're embarrassing me!"

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lol sorry for the cheesiness