inspiration story...(Completed)

what was it?

I never been so clueless on the question i'm trying to answer...
Just like in love. I'm clueless whether you like me or not...
Its really confusing...

Yet as it rains and the sky is filled with darkness I counted all the rain drops that ever so gently fall from my umbrella as it shield me from the cold drops of rain...
Yet it confuses me why the rain won't stop to cry...

The weather was perfect when i last checked. I guess the rain was unexpected just like my feelings for you. Sunny with a chance of rain. I always thought of stepping out of my umbrella and join the rain as i also cry my heart out never caring if its cold...

My heart is more colder and more dark than the rain and sky itself. Another day of rain...Oh, when shall this end?

This time you were standing at my door why are you apologizing?
Its really confusing...
Why does the room feel like there isn't any roof i can feel the rain from outside coming in the house.

When will i see the clear sky again?

Until...

sometime the rain was again enveloped with cold harsh winds. But suddenly out of the blue something warm came and the rain suddenly stopped instead i saw a person dripping wet as the person hugged me so tight that they seem to never let go...

Its really confusing...

I want them to stay but something tells me that they're not mine to begin with. As we said good bye I want to feel that same warmth again. But all i can do is watch them leave and never come back..

Don't go away yet...
Its really confusing...

I told myself that i can never have them I won't win this war. I'll never win...I tried to fight but its too hard to push pass when I've seen how badly injured my armor is... Its like a bullet came and shoot my armor until it made a huge gaping hole.

Its really confusing...

Why am I still standing even though i'm really beaten, damaged and injured? why are they looking as if they're worried for me?

Its really confusing...

why are they looking at me like they thought they knew me? my name...What is my name?...

Its really confusing...

Why are they shouting at me? I'm not deaf. I can hear them but...Can they hear me? something in me fluttered as they touch my lips its a heating sensation right in my chest and as it flutters more my chest hurts. Why?

Its really confusing...

Why do i feel warm? its like something is melting...I'm staring at my reflection and i saw myself why do i look like that. Is this me?

Its really confusing...

Is this what they called...

Love?....