Is He The One?

Chapter 10 ~ Hesitating

Chapter 10 ~ Hesitating

" ~In My Head:

My heart beats faster and faster, i feel like I'm a child when Im with Tao.. But wait..(YourName), what are you saying..remember about Kris? Have you forgotten? Yet I'm really in love with Tao, I think it's fair for me to give Kris a chance, I've even promised him that. (YourName), Tao is just a really good friend. Kris is the one who is really the one who belongs in your heart. "

...Continued~~~

Me: Tao, I'm gonna go make a phone call first.

Tao: okay.

~Calls Kris~~

Kris: Hey

Me: up for a movie?

Kris: yea sure, are you busy?

Me: No

Kris: uh meet you at the park?

Me: Noo noo, not there

Kris: why?

Me: just cause, pick me up at my house?

Kris: Sure

Me: -I give him my address-

Kris: see you in a few minutes then

Me: Okay byee

~Phone Call Ends~

Me: Tao, umm I have to go, I'm going to watch a movie with Mandy

Tao: what about lunch?

Me: I'm sorry, she rushed it, I wasn't expecting it either. Maybe next time?

Tao: it's okay, I can call Kris out to eat with me

Me: Awe so you're not gonna save me any?

Tao: hmm why don't you take the food with you and share with Mandy then.

Me: what about you?

Tao: I'll go eat at a restaurant.

Me: by yourself?

Tao: I'll ask Kris, oh mabe he's busy though, I'll go by myself, have fun at the movies.

~In My Head:

I don't want to leave him though..but I'm scared I might fall for him. I already lied to him, I feel so bad. Maybe I shouldn't have been with Kris but Kris is really sweet too. Kris is the one for you.

~Tao's Point of View~

After eating I went back to my dorm, I didn't see Kris anywhere. Maybe he's busy with the other members. What to do..have another surprise for (YourName)? I'll go find KyungSoo for help.

Tao: KyungSoo!

KyungSoo: what is it?

Tao: I need help.

KyungSoo: still like (YourName)?

Tao: yea

KyungSoo: but I don't think you have the chance anymore

Tao: why?

KyungSoo: haven't you heard she's been with Kris these days?

Tao: I don't believe it, I'm not going to give up on her. I know you're lying to me.

KyungSoo: where were you just at?

Tao: picnic with (YourName)

KyungSoo: and she left right?

Tao: yea..

KyungSoo: to go watch a movie with Kris. That's why Kris isn't here, I heard their conversation.

Tao: Noo..she said she was going to watch with Mandy

KyungSoo: you're not going to believe then.

Tao: I don't believe it..Help me make a surprise for her? A friendly one so she knows I'm trying to be friendly with her.

KyungSoo: well progress. You're trying to at least first become friends with her. I'm proud.

Tao: okay yea, any ideas?

~Kris' Point of View~

Kris: While you go out on a date with me? -He says as he hands me a flower-

Me: Awe yes!

I hug her really tight and kiss the top of her head.

~My Point of View~

Hug. Where have I felt this feeling before? The name Tao pops up in my head, even though Kris is the one hugging me, and I remember the day of my birthday and when I saw Exo live. I can feel Kris' warmth and his arms around me, his kiss on my head, it makes me blush but it doesn't feel the same when Tao hugged me. Even without the kiss on my head, Tao had made my heart beat faster than normal. The feeling of nervousness isn't as strong as when I'm with Tao but yet I feel like I can be myself with Kris and not really with Tao. Or is it the other way around? Am I more serious with Kris? And more childish with Tao? I think back of earlier when I was at the park with Tao, I felt really comfortable with him and being myself but the more I think of it, being with Kris, seems all like an act I'm showing for Tao. Is it really just to make him jealous? Or for his own good? I'm hesitating in this relationship with Kris now..I know it'll help Tao to learn to trust and respect my choices but I feel a little bit selfish. What am I suppose to do? Continue this relationship with Kris? And go straight to Tao and ask him if I can date him? What? Tao will think that I'm a hypocrite..I've just told him to stay friends first and to learn to respect each other but what am I now? Wanting to be with him..but he doesn't respect my actions..I don't want to argue with him. I know he's just over protective. Sometimes it's good but not always. What am I going to do?

...To Be Continued~~~

How is the story so far? What do you think (YourName)'s choice will be? If you were to choose, what will YOU choose? (: Hope you're having a good day