Beauty Is A Beast

Real Vs. Realistic

Josephine's Mommy ^^ Also dedicated to @XxlollythestriplerxX for leaving comments :) Thanks love xxx

Josephine's POV

{Real Vs. Realistic}

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I stare at myself in the mirror while smoothing down the front of the shirt. I didn't have many options but I did have a pair of clean jeans, a loose yellow top, and white ballet flats. It's fancier than what I would wear to school so it's fine. I grab my phone from under the mattress and stuff it in my back pocket before carefully peeking out the door. Mom is still knocked out on the bed and the sleeping drugs I slipped in her water should keep her like that.

Okay I know it's bad to slip drugs into someone's drinks without them noticing but think of it this way. She hasn't slept in really long and she really needs it. I don't want her waking up suddenly when she really needs to sleep. Besides, the sleeping pulls were prescribed to her and the directions say to dissolve it with water or milk and then drink it. So technically, I was giving her medicine.

I slowly make my way to the front door and slowly shut it before speed walking towards the park. Thankfully Rhazien didn't try and pick me up from my house since I wouldn't know what to do. Guilt fills my chest when I pass by the house that I tried to pass as my own but I try to ignore it. It's for the best. Rhazien doesn't care and he won't matter in the end after all this.

Although, I don't know how long this is going to last. I don't know how long it's going to take before he dumps me but I hope it's soon so I don't get attached to him. It's bad enough that I already felt giddy when he was texting me last night but I don't want that to continue. All I have to do is show Rhazien how to be happier so he'll be more approachable and better girls will go after him and he'll dump me after seeing the better options out there. But why does the thought of that hurt so much?

I force that thought out of my head and let a smile on my face. All I have to do is think about my dad's deep laughter that spreads throughout his chest and surrounds the whole room in warmth and the smile on my face turns real. He was such a happy man who didn't let anything get in the way of his happiness and I vow to be just like that.

Eventually I get to the park and wave at Rhazien, who just stares at me blankly and stands up as I get near him. That's going to take a bit of work. "You could at least say hi back," I say with a pout, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Where the hell is your jacket? It's fucking cold," he states, narrowing his eyes at me and I glare back at him.

"Stop cussing! And my jacket is in the laundry and I didn't have any others," I tell him honestly. It's good to counteract a lie with a truth so it cancels each other out, right? Oh well, as long as he doesn't ask anything too personal then I think I can be honest with him. He comes off as a jerk but I believe that there's a good side to him. I just have to find a way to get it out.

He sighs heavily and looks around. "Okay well, let's go then. I don't want to go outside since you're going to be shivering the whole time so I guess we can go to the flea market," he says, starting to walk in a certain direction.

"Isn't the flea market outside though?" I ask, my eyes widening when he stops in front of a car. Holy heaven is this his car?

He gets in the drivers seat and motions for me to get inside after unlocking the door. I get inside the passenger seat and start to feel the leather interior as he starts the car and drives away to who-knows-where.

"Not the one we're going to. It's like a flea market version of a mall. And didn't anyone ever tell you to not get inside a stranger's car?" he asks, making me roll my eyes.