Catharsis

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It's true

I'm not as confident as
I may seem

Everyone seems to
Call me a
Queen but
I constantly

Don't feel
Like one

Everyone thinks I dress
The best but
In reality
I spend all

My time searching
Through my closet
Because when I

Try on cute
Outfits I always
Feel like a
Mess

People look at me
As an inspiration
But I constantly
See myself

As a failure

I don't why and I don't
Know how

But I always seem
So scared of my
Future

Because I'm afraid
I'll fail to be
The greatest
Person I

Dream to become

Or that my
Dreams that I've
Wanted to for so long
Will be crushed

You see
I fake my confidence

I fake it because
I want to know what it's
Like to walk with
My shoulders

Back and my
Head held
High

I want to know
It's like
To look
People in the

Eye and feel
Assertive when
I talk

And it seems
To work everytime

Ever since I
Started
People think

"Wow,she knows what she wants."

"She's someone I want to look up to."

"She's so beautiful."

But the only person
Who doesn't feel
All those positive things
Is me

But I constantly
Imagine myself
As being the
Girl

Who just loves
Herself and
Is not
Afraid to
Be herself

I just wish
That I saw
Those things
When I look

In the mirror

But a little
Birdy told me
It takes time
To have

Self love but
It's so worth fighting for

To this day
I still fake my confidence
But everyday I feel
Closer to

Becoming the girl
I've always dreamed
Of being