I knew
That all people
Weren't kind
Like me
I knew
That some people
Were hurt so
Much that they
Even hurt people
But I didn't
Those people could
Exist in
Your own home
For a long
Time I
Was told to
Never let anyone
Use me
Hurt me
Bully me
Or break me
But little did
I know that
You would
Become that person
You let him
Hurt me
You let him
Break me
I was scared
Of you
Like a kid
Scared of monsters
When I heard
Your voices
It sounded like
The giant
Coming after Jack
When I heard
Your footsteps
I felt
Like I
Was going to
To be hurt
Or used
I feared you...
But you slept
Easy knowing
That I
Was afraid
Day after day
I tried to
Runaway from
You
I wanted
To get away from
This broken
Home I
Wanted to
Be free
I felt unloved
But you just
Said
"Get over it"
"You're troubled"
"Stop always exaggerating"
"Just shutup"
You taught me
That this
Is what love
Is
And I
Soon got use
To it
But little did
I know
This was abusive
This was an abusive home
To this
Day I think
Why in the hell
Do I forgive
You after what
You put me
Through
Why do I
Still have the
Nerve to
Asks how
You're doing everyday
After what happened
Why do
I still
Bother to
See you
Why the hell do I still call you my mother??
Even though
That I left
I still experience
All the backlash
You guys weren't
My family
Because you
Broke me
And thought this
Was how things
Were suppose
To be
Everyday is a
Battle but I
Know that
One day
I'll finally
Have a family
Of my
Own
And we
Will be
Happy
I want to
Be better than
You
I want to
Be a loving
Partner and
Mother
I want
To have a
Family that'll
Be my refuge
Not who I have to run from♡
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Catharsis
Poetryca·thar·sis /kəˈTHärsəs/ "the process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions."
