Catharsis

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I knew
That all people
Weren't kind
Like me

I knew
That some people
Were hurt so
Much that they

Even hurt people

But I didn't
Those people could
Exist in
Your own home

For a long
Time I
Was told to
Never let anyone

Use me
Hurt me
Bully me
Or break me

But little did
I know that
You would
Become that person

You let him
Hurt me
You let him
Break me

I was scared
Of you
Like a kid
Scared of monsters

When I heard
Your voices
It sounded like
The giant

Coming after Jack
When I heard
Your footsteps
I felt

Like I
Was going to
To be hurt
Or used

I feared you...

But you slept
Easy knowing
That I
Was afraid

Day after day
I tried to
Runaway from
You

I wanted
To get away from
This broken
Home I

Wanted to
Be free

I felt unloved

But you just
Said

"Get over it"

"You're troubled"

"Stop always exaggerating"

"Just shutup"

You taught me
That this
Is what love
Is

And I
Soon got use
To it

But little did
I know
This was abusive
This was an abusive home

To this
Day I think
Why in the hell
Do I forgive

You after what
You put me
Through

Why do I
Still have the
Nerve to
Asks how

You're doing everyday
After what happened
Why do
I still

Bother to
See you

Why the hell do I still call you my mother??

Even though
That I left
I still experience
All the backlash

You guys weren't
My family
Because you
Broke me

And thought this
Was how things
Were suppose
To be

Everyday is a
Battle but I
Know that
One day

I'll finally
Have a family
Of my
Own

And we
Will be
Happy

I want to
Be better than
You

I want to
Be a loving
Partner and
Mother

I want
To have a
Family that'll
Be my refuge

Not who I have to run from♡