Sophie's feelings towards her best friend, Gabriel, she protects like it's her dearest treasure, in fear of someone finding them. In fear of him finding out. So she grabs her pen and writes her loveletters which he will never receive.
Sadness fills me, taking overhand. It drags me down. Down to a level I don't even want to see.
I look out my window. The weather is just as sad; the rain pours down from the sky, the sky is just like a unwashed, fluffy blanket of grey clouds. Everything looks absolutely miserable, just like I feel. Something in me feels so empty now that I know he's not in the room next to me anymore. We're not wall-to-wall neighbours anymore, and we will probably never be.
I know I have to get myself together and face reality how it is now. But how can I without my reality here? Without my best friend? Without my soulmate?
My eyes glance to the photograph standing in front of me on my desk, of me and Gabriel together, in front of the Big Ben. A weak smile tugs on the corners of my lips when I reminisce back to that day. We took the train to London, after he got my parents' agreement, he payed for a ride on a tourist bus and the London Eye. I was so happy. I was living my life. With my one and only, who has absolutely no idea of how I actually feel about him.
I am too ashamed to tell him. But I need to without him knowing.
So I grab a piece of paper and a pen, and start writing.
Letter #1
June 22nd, 2015
Dear Gabe, I hope you're doing okay. I hope your new home lives up to your expectations, I really hope you will be happy there. I'm going to be brutally honest with you, and tell you that ever since you moved away, I've been crying. I've been sitting by my desk, looking out my window at the rubbish, rainy weather that seems to be just as sad as me. I miss you so much already. You probably, at least I hope, know that you have, are and will forever be my dearest and best friend. You're the person I've known my whole life that I really can trust. Of course I trust mum, dad and Alexa too, but not in the same way. I can tell you everything, absoluteley everything that I can't tell anyone else. Because I know you won't judge me, you will always listen to my problems and secrets and come with some good advice. I can't thank you enough for that. You will always be the first person I tell if I would commit some sort of crime, got in a fight at school or got a good grade. You will always be my first choice.
Have a wonderful day. And promise me to live your life to the fullest. Anyhow, I hope we stay in touch.
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