My Bodyguards Daughter (Harry Styles Story)

Tiny and breakable

Becca's P.O.V.

I slapped Harry. I needed to slap him for all the anger I have with him. "Harry, you did this. Do you realize how much my daughter loves you? You and I never really had this talk. I know your mom would be disappointed to hear what you are doing. She calls Jess everyday. Hell she is flying out here next week with your sister to help prepare for the baby. Did you know this? No you wouldn't have known because you won't talk to your girlfriend." I could tell that he was feeling guilty. "You have no idea what it is like. I watched my baby girl go through hell for you all because she loves you. Is love worth it? How can you sleep at night knowing all that you have done to her? Let me tell you something, I thought you were different. I thought you would be it for my daughter. You made promises but here you are constantly breaking them," I can't look him in the eye.

I stood up and told Harry to follow me. I decided to leave the chapel and go talk to Harry in the cafeteria. I grabbed a coffee for the both of us and we sat down. I needed to have this talk with him.

"Harry you have no idea how disappointed I am in you. I sadly see my past actions in your actions now. Harry, I partied and ignored Paul right after I had Jess. I constantly ran away from my responsibilities as a mother, girlfriend, and wife. I told Paul when I was pregnant constantly that I didn't want a baby. Hell even after Jess was born I would remind him that I didn't want a baby. I was so angry with myself for becoming a teen mom. I love Jess with all my heart. The day she was born I was scared I would break her. I love her but sadly my need to party got in the way. I saw my friends partying and I wanted to be part of that. I got so mixed into it and that's why I would tell Paul that all the time," I took a sip of my coffee. Harry's expression is so hard to read. "If you loved her why did you do all that shit to her growing up?" Harry asked, as he got mad at me. "Harry I have made mistakes as a mother. But don't you ever question my love for my daughter. You know we had our moments. When we moved to Colorado things were starting to get better until I got caught up in the partying again with Richard. I never meant to hurt her. I wish I could go back and do it all over again. I would do anything to have a good relationship with Jess. We were just starting to," I began to cry.

"Harry do you see where I am coming from? That continuing with breaking promises will ruin the ones you love. I am still making up for my mistakes. You don't want to live your life in regret or wondering what could have been if you didn't make mistakes. I always wonder what would have been. If I would have married Paul and truly been a family. What would have been if I chose Justin over Richard? Don't follow what I have done. Harry it is miserable being the parent that messes up all the time. I constantly messed up and now I am making up for it. 18 years of mistakes and here I am trying to make up and I may not have any more time with her. I may lose my daughter and you don't know what that feels like," I cried.

"You think I don't know what it feels like? The love of my life is here and may not make it. My unborn daughter may die as well. I'll lose the only two things worth living for. I have made my mistakes with your daughter. I don't know what I will do if I lose them. I need them. I need them. Mama B, I am terrified I may not get my second chance. I need to get my second chance. I will not make the same mistakes you made. I don't want to. I became distant because I didn't know how to tell Jess that we are going on tour again after the baby is born. I don't want to leave them. I can't leave them. So I did what I did best and push her away. I shouldn't have. Ten minutes and my world changed. I love your daughter. I need her." Harry broke down. I hugged Harry and could only console him. I looked at my watch and realized we have been gone for an hour. "Let's head back and hope they make it. Harry I am rooting for you both." I hugged him.

As we arrived, I noticed the doctor approaching our group again. "We have a healthy baby girl and Jessica's CT scans came back and activity is normal. We have moved Jessica to a room in the ICU and the baby is in the NICU. She is allowed one visitor at a time and the baby is allowed one to two visitors but you have to be in scrubs to see her," the doctor said.