Wild Heart \\ T.H.

10

"Baby you're so perfect

But he's the perfect one for me.

I know that you're worth it

But something about him gets to me."

History by Olivia Holt

I wake up and get ready. I decide to call Zeke.

"Hey Kat!" He says.

"Hey Zeke, what's up with you?"

"Nothing."

"Why are you actin weird?"

There was a long pause.

"Because I like you but you're taken."

"Oh. I'm sorry. But I don't like you like that. You're perfect, but not for me."

"I know." He hangs up.

I sit down just thinking. I stay in the same position for a while and just think. A ding from my phone brings me back to reality. I look down to see it's Zendaya asking where I am. I say I'm on my way and rush to set.

I feel very different for the rest of the day, I don't feel much joy. I spend my extra time just sitting somewhere sitting, blank faced. If someone comes close to me or tries to talk to me, I glare at them until they leave. I think constantly.

I leave and Tom comes with me.

"What's wrong with you?"

"I asked Zeke why he was acting weird."

"Oh."

"I am trying to figure out how I was so oblivious and stupid! How could I do this to him?"

"It's not your fault, he didn't tell you! It isn't your fault!"

"Yeah okay," I say before rushing away.

I get home and just sink down on the floor. I don't bother getting up to change or get to my bed. I  think.

After a while, I get up and change. I go to bed and stay there thinking because it is clear I can't sleep.

How could I hurt him so much?

Why did I not realize it sooner?

Why am I such an idiot?

I start crying sometime during my thinking but everything becomes a blur. I lay for hours, tears staining my face sadness eating away any possibility of happiness. Doubt replacing confidence. I think of who else I had hurt. 

Sorry for the filler and short chapter! I realized that I have to update but I wasn't really feeling too much inspiration so.... 

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