6 months to live

Ashton Gabriel

It was never my intention to hurt her
It was just a gentle push
That was all it was

It wasn't my fault that she was a crybaby
I did it for my amusement and for her to toughen up
If people claimed that they hated her,
Said she was a brat,
Good for nothing,
Then why did they care about what I had done to her?

I played it off as a mistake
Just a simple little accident
That's all it was

    It was first grade when I first encountered that notebook on the playground.

   It was the first day after the slide incident that happened between two of my classmates, a boy by the name of Ashton Gabriel pushed a girl down the slide. The girl, Ingrid Pane, hadn't been paying attention do when he pushed her, her body reacted to the force he used. The girl ended up missing the slide and falling off the platform they were standing on. She ended up clashing with the mulch and grass.

    Everyone believed him...they believed that it was just a simple accident because Ashton was a first grader. He was too dumb, too young to understand the difference between what's acceptable and what's deemed inappropriate.

      Everyone except me. I knew the truth.

   I could've easily given the notebook to a trusted adult and have Ashton pay for the consequences but obviously...I didn't.

     Ingrid didn't remember anything when she came back a month or two later. Everyone pitied her because she was the girl in the cast that everyone was dying to sign. She was the girl that teachers spoon fed because of her disability. People followed behind her like mindless slaves because Ingrid had troubles walking, writing, and even comprehending things.

     Not me. I refused to because Ingrid's life in my eyes wasn't worth a single penny.

  I hated Ingrid with every part of me.

     Ashton and I ended up teaming up together. We did some outright horrendous things that most first graders wouldn't dare think of.

      In his eyes people and animals didn't matter. On our play dates, we would gather up little insects and squash them for fun. We conducted little experiments where we started off with small steps like stepping on them to a point where they were left disfigured and in pain as they were still living. Our experiments would then get a little bit more serious when he took an interest in science. His idea was to electrocute them for fun.

     Slowly his plans got bigger and bigger and he decided that he had enough of puny little insects. He had his mind on a bigger target.

      That was when I had enough of Ashton. Ashton's crazy idea was to try to perform surgery on my dog. I kicked him out of my house and notified his parents of his behavior.

      That was the last I saw of Ashton but his touch still lingers. We were best friends up until the third grade when I lashed out at him.

     Our friendship was getting weird as I started to notice his subtle attraction towards me. He would leave me dead rodents in strange places as a way of sharing his passion. Ashton was a strange kid and everyone knew that.

  I didn't know girls could smell so pretty
I find myself asking whether I'm handsome enough or normal enough

Why am I not like the other kids?
The other kids fear me
Why do they pick on me so much? What did I do to deserve such hate?

They'll pay one day
One day people will cower before me
Everyone will know my name...because they'll fear me

I'll make everyone of them pay

And you'll be the first one

    Ashton moved away with the rest of family a couple of weeks after I read that. I was too scared to know what to do with the note that he had purposely left in my school locker.

     I was a shy kid back then. I didn't know how to react to the situation. I thought that maybe if I had ignored it, it would disappear without a trace and never come back to taunt me...ever.

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FINALLY!! This is the theme that I prefer *sigh of relief*
The whole light concept doesn't sit well with me because at heart I am a darker story writer. This could've been soooo much darker but I held back because I'm trying to keep it rated for everyone.