Wanting That Country Boy

Mad, Happy, Confused...?

I was scared for my life and i was afraid to look if it was positive i would be dead and if it was negative i would be fine and go with daily life but there are only 2 options not no maybe……

I was about to remove my hand when all of the sudden Logan knocked on the door asking if everything was alright……..that's the question i'm asking myself….if i can't answer myself i can't answer him…...but when i looked down i saw a positive sign and dropped down to my knees crying.

Why now? Has someone put a curse on me right now when there is too much stress…..

‘’Is everything ok? Open the door now or i'll break it down.’’ Logan wasn't kidding.

I put the test in the trash and dried my tears….Logan was already trying to bash the door in.

‘’Logan stop i'm coming out….’’

Oh god what was i going to say?? He is going to ask me why i was crying it's obvious…..

I unlocked the door and came out of the bathroom. Logan stared at me with a confused look

‘’What?’’ I asked

‘’Nothing’’ He looked down and then back up at me.

I left the room and went downstairs to the living room. I felt like just lying on the floor and crying for hours. But i sat down on the couch and took a deep breath…...everything will be ok….just remember Logan is here he isn't going anywhere……

I got up and went to the patio on the back side of the house and sat down in the chair and let out a few tears. I was struggling through school already and a job. I have the rest of the year left and i'm out of school and then my job and everything is crashing down.

I heard Logan behind me and he walked up and kneeled and grabbed my hand.

‘’Whats going on?’’ Logan looked at me with those glassy eyes and i just let the tears out.

Logan grabbed me and then walked me inside and sat me down in the living room and asked me again and again. I didn't know what to say and i didn't want to say

‘’Come on just tell me maybe i can help you, i can always help.’’

I just kept the tears down and managed to get my voice back.

‘’Logan please don't get pissed off when i tell you this.’’

‘’Why would i get pissed off i never get pissed off, not at you.’’

‘’I have a feeling you are going to….’’

‘’Just give your best shot i'll understand or try to.’’

‘’I'll just say one word, test.’’

‘’What your going to have to give me more than just that word…..or wait...your…?’’

I nodded and he got up and walked to the window. What was going to happen next? I felt bad enough and having more stress added is bad enough.

Logan stood in the window for a moment and then turned around.

‘’You took a test. It was positive. So now you're pregnant…...am i on the same page with you now?’’

I shook my head yes and he closed his eyes and i swore he was about to do something bad.

‘’I guess i don't understand why you're crying…….i'm trying to understand that part……’’

‘’I'm scared i don't know what to do. I don't know how to act about it. I don't know anything.’’

‘’You know one thing, that i'm going to be here for you and i'm not going anywhere. That is what the ring on your finger is for and its use is coming in effect.’’

I smiled and all of the sudden all the stress came off my shoulders i didn't feel like crying or any of that but my stomach hurt and i wasn't hungry for anything. But it's best if i do eat a little bit of something so i had a couple crackers.