My Rainbow of Confusion

Chappie 5

Chapter 5: Florida

Her words took me by surprise. I was so surprised in fact, that I actually jumped up from her lap and looked at her.
Florida fucking sucked.
"What do you mean? I would kill to go to Florida." I said to her.
Sam shrugged.
"The state is beautiful and it was definitely a lot of fun but its the memories. Not all of them are good." She looked at me.
I took my phone out of my bra and looked at the time, "well you have 20 minutes to tell me the story." I straightened up and waited.
She laughed, "okay. Well, I lived there my whole life, my whole childhood. I had one friend her name was Jen. Well, I called her Jen, her name was Jenifer. We were so close like really, really, close. We did everything together like straight from Girl Meets World. Until.." She paused.
"Go on." I said quietly.
"Until we got to high school, then we got separated which was to be expected because we didn't have any classes together except lunch. But after the second week of Freshman year, she left me. Stopped saying hey in the hallways, stopped sitting with me at lunch, stopped coming over after school." She cleared her throat.
"Um, I asked her one day, I said; are we hanging out after school? She said, I only hang out with my friends. I think I literally died, that day. Her words hit me like train." She looked away from me, "I loved her."
My heart jumped.
For some reason, hearing that she loved another girl made me a tad upset.
Whoa, am I really jealous of a girl I don't know?
Sam cried.
They way she cried made me think I was the first person she has ever shared this story with.
All these years, and she just opened her heart, to me.
I put her head on my chest and she sobbed.
"Oh! And there was this guy. I don't remember his name, Adam or something, he took her, he always took the ones I liked. Ever since middle school. My life went downhill after that." She hiccuped.
"How so?" I asked her.
"My dad, got locked up. He started hitting my mom and of course she tried to leave but he wouldn't let her. I don't even know why, my mom never told me. But she called the police, got divorce papers and we left the state." She wrapped her arms around my waist.
I suddenly start to wonder how many people are looking and what they could be thinking.
I'm sitting on Sam's lap facing her so my legs are around her waist.
I hug her.
"I'm sorry, Sam." I whisper.
"Don't be." She replied.
"I have a sad story too." I said.
"Really?" She asked.
"I used to have a dog, but she ran away." I said.
Sam laughed.
"No because I never freaking found her, I was depressed." I laughed.
Oh my gosh.
Sam is so amazing.
I don't know what it is about her but its like I can love her and be her friend at the same.
We laughed and laughed, until I brought up my real sad story.
Sam picked her head up and met my gaze. "What?"
"Yup, I used to have a little brother." I nod my head.
I told her the story of my little brother Alex. I'm not gonna go into detail because there have been enough tears for one class period.
Alex was 7 and I was 10 and it was the same day we were looking for my dog, Biscuit. Alex ran across the road without looking first and he got hit by a car. When I saw him I think I died that day, because I knew he was dead. I screamed for our mom and dad and Alex died on the way to the hospital.
My dad wanted to have another child 4 years later, but it was too much for my mom, so its just me and until I give them some grandkids then it will just be me.
"You know to this day we never found the driver. Jackass." I told Sam.
"Oh Amber, I'm so sorry." She tucks a hair behind my ear.
"Honestly, if I just came out the house sooner-"
"Hey, no. Do not start blaming yourself." Sam said to me.
"I know I know, and I am over it. Like of course I miss him and I love him but I did my crying." We looked at each other for a moment.
I reached out to touch her ocean colored hair.
It was soft and like silk, it ran through my fingers.
I took both hands and touched her hair, eventually I cupped her face and ran them down to her shoulders.
All the while she held eye contact with me.
I love this girl, I really do and hearing her story today makes me love her even more.
The gym teachers blow their whistles and Sam and I jump.
She blinks at me, "guess we gotta go get changed." She says smiling.
I nod my head.
I hop off her lap and reach my hands out to help her up.
She stands, her lips become inches away from mine.
I blush and turn away.
Its too much.
I can't breathe again.
I should really go see a doctor about this.
Still holding my hand, we go to the locker room.
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The rest of the day included me trying to not think about Sam.
Even though Crate brought her up any chance she got, I still tried not to think about her.
At the end of the day I saw two girls push Sam out of their way.
My heart jumped as it yearned to be by her side but then I was reminded that she can handle her own.
She tripped the tall one and the girl fell hard.
I stifled a laugh as I watched the other girl, rush to her friend's aid.
Sam just walked away.
I suddenly thought about Abraham and to my luck, he saw me and started talking to me.
"Please call me Abe." He insisted.
"So Abe how are you liking Havington High, its okay if you hate it here, everyone hates it here." I said.
He laughed, "its not bad, my parents made public school seem like this awful place but I think its great." He says.
"You came from private? Where?" I question.
"Florida."
My heart stopped.
Um, why does that sound so familiar to me?

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