My Rainbow of Confusion

Chappie 10

Chapter 10: I'm Feeling Bold

But why?
Because I like you. But its okay if you don't like me lol.
No! I do, I think I've never um.
Lol its okay Amber I know it's probably really weird but i really do like you. And even if i didn't i would always defend you!
Oh Sam, you're so sweet <3
I wish i could see you. I'm bored already :(
Hmm, back door 10 minutes :)))
I'm feeling bold.
The reason I said 10 minutes is because both my parents will be heading for work soon, so I'll have the house to myself.
"Amber! I'm leaving be good!" My mom called from downstairs.
"Okay mom see you later!" I called back.
10 minutes later my dad called.
"Amber dearest, I'm heading out I'll see you tomorrow!"
"Alright dad love you!" I called back.
I waited for about 20 minutes before I texted Sam.
I heard two knocks on the back door and I went to open it.
"Hey there beautiful." Sam greeted me.
My heart fluttered. I smiled and leaned against the door.
"Sam." I said quietly.
She smiled and stepped towards me.
"Amber." She whispered.
"Hmm?"
"May I come in?"
"Oh!" I snapped back to reality and moved to the side opening the door.
Sam laughed, I love her laugh.
I took Sam upstairs to my room.
"Aw adorable. Its so bright." Sam remarked.
Its true. My walls are painted a light lavender color and my bed sheets are white.
My couch is gray and my desk is white.
The padded bed area by the window is yellow and pink.
My baby pictures are all hung up above my bed head with a capital A in the center.
"Make yourself at home." I said to her.
She laid on my bed and I joined her.
We talked for about 2 hours before she got hungry.
"I can make mac and cheese." I said.
"I'll take it." We got up and went downstairs.
When we entered the kitchen I took out a pot and filled it with water.
I dumped a box of Mac and cheese in the pot and turned it on so it could boil.
20 minutes later we were eating mac and cheese with toast.
"When I was 6, my dad got me my first pet. And a cactus." Sam informed me.
"Lucky. I want a cactus." We laughed.
"My pet was a fish. And of course me being 6 years old I forgot to feed her and she died. As for my cactus he's still alive I think." She said.
"You think?"
"When he got too tall for my room my dad and I planted him in the backyard. I don't know who lives there now but they probably chopped him down." Sam laughed.
"That's so sad."
"It actually is. Damn." We both laughed and continued to eat our toast.
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Sam and I spent the entire afternoon together after getting suspended from school.
We played twister and shared secrets and had quick intimate moments.
No, we didn't kiss.
It was nearing the time that my mom would be coming home so Sam said she will use the bathroom and then go back to her house.
While I waited for Sam to come back, I cleaned up the twister mat and put the bowls of macaroni in the sink.
Then the door bell rang.
I looked at the time before answering.
Oh shit! No it can't be mom its way to early.
Oh maybe its Crate.
I ran to the door and peeped through the peep hole.
Abraham.
My heart leapedout of my mouth.
What the hell is he doing here?
And Sam is here?
What the hell?
What the hell?
What the he-
The bell rang again.
I opened the door.
"Hey!" I greeted Abe my heart thumping in my chest.
I peek over my shoulder to make sure Sam didn't come out the bathroom yet.
"Hey, I wanted to stop by make sure you were okay." He smiled.
"Oh yeah, I'm fine, my nose by the way is not broken, just bruised and swollen. But I am grounded until the end of time so you unfortunately can't stay." I shook my head.
I'm praying that I'm convincing enough and that he will just go.
"Are your parents home? I would love to meet them." He asked looking over me.
"Unfortunately no they are work but I will tell them you stopped by!" I proceed to close the door when Sam came out the bathroom.
"Amber your soap smells-" she stopped when she saw Abraham.
I closed my eyes. I wanted to melt into the floor and just go away.
"Amazing. Who is this?" She asked.
"Hi, I'm Abraham Dip. Are you a friend of Amber?" Aw he's so polite.
"Abraham.. Abraham!" Sam's eyes filled with anger.
"Wait. Samantha?" Abe questioned.
"My name is Sam. And why are you here?" She walked towards the door.
"Wow Samantha. Still hate me?" He smirked.
I looked at him, mean Abe? Never seen it.
"Oh trust me I do." She eyed him.
"Why are you here?"
"I came to see Amber. To make sure she is okay." He replied.
"She's fine. What is your um connection to him?" She asked me.
My face flushed red and I wanted to disappear.
There is no running away from this, not anymore.
"I, um-"
"I like her." Abe cut me off.
Sam stumbled back.
"No. No no no you don't. No way, you can't have this one, not her!" Sam walked up to us.
"You took everyone from me, Amber is my girl!" She growled.
"Listen Samantha, Jen came to me. And it was how many years ago? Get over it." He waved his hand at her.
My heart fluttered at that, my girl.
Yes I want to be your girl!
"I'll rip your fucking face off." She clenched her fists.
"She said she liked me back." Abe shrugged.
Whoa, no I didn't.
"So unless we're sharing, I think she's mine." He smirked.
Sam's jaw dropped. She looked at me.
"Y-you like h-him?!"
"Sam-"
"Don't!" She stepped back from me.
"Sam just listen."
"No! No! You wanna like him, go ahead, have each other!" She was hurt. So hurt, just like the dream.
Goddamnit Apollo!
"But I like you Sam!" I said.
Abe stepped in front of me.
"Um what?"
I pushed him, "why won't you listen?" I asked Sam.
"Because I'm not the one who's confused about her sexuality!"
My eyes widened.
My heart stopped.
I took a step back.
"You knew?" My voice cracked.
"Yes."
"You knew and yet you still played with me? So all those things you said, all the pet names you said to me, what was that?" Tears are dropping from my eyes.
Sam ran a hand through her hair.
"Get out." I said.
"Amber wait-"
"Get the fuck out! Both of you!" Abe was the first to go and Sam followed.
She turned around and looked at me and I slammed the door.
I ran upstairs and sobbed in my pillow.
This is why we don't fall in love. No matter what gender.
What a crappy way to start my suspension week.

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