My Rainbow of Confusion

Chappie 11

Chapter 11: She Doesn't Love You

I haven't talked to Sam nor Abe in 2 weeks.
Abe on the other hand, has texted me at least 16 times, Sam zero.
I don't even see her light on anymore, I have to admit that worries me.
My suspension is over and I'm back in school.
Not only did I lose Sam, but rumors are flying around like crazy.
Crate is currently with her parents at Virginia Beach for her cousin's wedding so I have no one to hide behind and no one to talk too.
I called her though, and told her how done I was with Sam, Abe, Bob, Trina. I don't care anymore.
But to say that physics, gym, painting, and English are awkward as fuck, is an understatement.
In physics, Abe can't under the fact that I don't want to talk to him.
Even if I didn't hate him right now, a girl still needs her space.
I'm here when you're ready to talk.
Ugh, you are not the one I want to talk too!
Abe is a good guy he really is. But my heart is elsewhere.
In English, I have fucking Cassidy Sinoma breathing down my goddamn neck! She just sits in the back of the classroom and stares at me with a still bruised cheek that Sam gave her. If she didn't hate me before, she wants me dead now.
Oh you wanna hear some of the rumors involving Sam, Cassidy and I?
I heard they were all lovers and Cassidy got jealous because Amber was paying more attention to the new girl more than her.
I heard that Cassidy hit Amber and Sam just came to her rescue. Weak.
I was there. Cassidy is crazy, she slapped Amber and then Amber hit her then Cassidy broke her nose then Sam punch her in the face.
No, Sam and Amber are obviously dating, and she had to beat up a crazy bitch for her girlfriend you know?
Hilarious.
Gym and Painting don't get any better.
Sam doesn't even look at me. And if she does, she just stares longingly. Sometimes it looks as though she is going to say something but then she looks away.
I want her so bad!
I miss Crate. She would know what to do.
I'm at lunch and Cassidy is giving me death stares as I eat my Wendys.
I take my phone out and text Crate, telling her to call me when she can.
I take another bite of my burger when the clouds of heaven open and Sam sits in front of me.
I literally choke on the beef from the burger.
She looks at me and drinks her juice.
An eerie silence settles upon us.
What am I supposed to do?!
This is exactly what I wanted. For her to just be in my presence.
Ah, it feels so good.
"Amber?"
I look up alert, "Y-yes?"
"Amber. I'm sorry. You can keep hating me if you want but, I don't want to die knowing that I never apologized." She said softly.
I can tell by the way she is looking at her juice and gripping the straw, she rehearsed this. But doing the real thing is way harder than doing it in the bathroom mirror.
"But why? Why did you play with my feelings?" I asked.
"I don't know. First I was just gonna flirt with you. I saw you and Crate and I was like, she's cute I'm going for it. But then when I found out you were finding yourself, I became an ass, but then I actually ended up falling for you and I'm sorry."
I reach out and take her hands in mine, she looks at them and blushes like a mad man.
God, I love this girl, and I hate that I want to forgive her, but I can't help it I'm miserable without her.
I smile, I think I'm going to cry, "Oh Sam, you're so sweet."
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The rest of my day went rather well.
Well, if you count out all the times I've been asked if Cassidy, Sam and I are lovers, and Cassidy looking at me like I'm her next victim on the list of death, then yes my day was pretty good.
My nose is back to normal by the way. No more swelling and its back to its original tan color with the freckles.
I'm walking to German when Abe stops me.
I internally roll my eyes and look up at him.
"Abraham. We need to talk." I say to him.
I must end this now. I know now who I want in my life.
"Yes we do. You know I still love you right Amber?" He asked, hope in his eyes.
"Yes I know but Abraham I'm sorry my heart belongs to someone else." I say someone else like he has no clue who I'm talking about.
I wonder if this was a good idea.
"Samantha." He twists his neck.
"Yes, Sam." I say, my heart rate picking up a little.
My red flags are shooting up and I wonder if he can see them.
"You know she doesn't have your best interest at mind Amber. She doesn't love you." He says.
There is anger in his voice and its scaring me a little.
"Yes she does. What are you talking about?"
He laughed, "Samantha George doesn't love the people she comes close to. She uses them up and tosses them to the side." He looked at me.
"And you've just fallen into her trap. Just another player in her game." He touches my chin.
I swat his hand away, "I don't know what you're talking about so I'm gonna go. Goodbye Abraham."
I walked past him and kept my eyes forward because I felt as though if I looked back, he would take my soul.
"Please call me Abe!" He called after me with a laugh.
I don't know what is going on, but I don't like it. He acting like a psycho.
Telling me Sam doesn't love me is like saying the pizza at this place is good!
When I got to my classroom I turned my head just a tad and I saw Abe bump Sam. She looked as though she was about to pounce on him and tear him to shreds. But then I called her name. She turned and looked at me. Abe snickered.
I waved to her and she me blew me a kiss, after she gave Abe the finger.

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