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Jordyn
I slowly opened my eyes and looked at my surroundings not recognizing them. My head was pounding and I didn't know where I was or remember anything about last night. So I quickly got to my feet realizing all my clothes were still on so I'm pretty sure nothing serious happened. Going up to the door I opened it seeing nobody. I could only think of one place I could be and that's Tremaine's because he the only one that I know who has such a nice house.
It was best that I avoid him at all costs and pretend like last night didn't happen. So I quietly walked out the bedroom door and down the steps to get out of the front door. But before I could even turn the knob, I heard footsteps coming from behind me
"Jordyn" Tremaines deep voice sounded from behind me but I didn't turn around
Taking a deep breath, I finally spoke "I didn't mean to come here"
"Well you did... can we at least talk?"
I stayed silent with my back still facing him. All I wanted to do was leave right now. "there's nothing for us to talk about... if your looking for an apology then... I don't know what to tell you"
"I'm not looking for an apology"
"Then what are you looking for?"
"What are you looking for?" There was a pause "you came here"
I placed my forehead against the door and closed my eyes tightly before finally turning around to face him.
"A friend, love, someone who cares as much as I do or maybe even more, some to protect me and my child, someone to make me laugh when I'm sad and doesn't have any tension to hurt me." I sniffed trying to hold back the tears knowing my eyes have already glossed over. "Is that to much to ask Trey?"
"So I was never any of that to you"
I stayed quiet
"So why'd you stay?"
I was quiet again
"Huh? Why didn't you just leave me Jordyn"
"Cause I fell in love with you" I answered softly avoiding eye contact with him.
It started to get awkward and I felt the urge to leave, so I turned the door knob opening it until Trey quickly reached his arm over me closing it. Now I was stuck in between him hovering over me and the solid door.
"Why?" He asked looking down at me
"Why what?"
"Why you love me"
"Tremaine-"
He cut me off "why did you love me" he repeated as he continued to look down at me with his hand still resting on the door above my head.
"You know why" I rolled my eyes looking towards the other way.
"I don't... tell me"
Taking a deep breath a finally made eye contact with him "you made me feel beautiful, stuck up for me, made me smile and laugh" then I paused thinking of the bad things he did "but you always found a way to fuck that up"
"I'm not going to make up any excuses for what I did"
"Thank you.... can I go now"
He still didn't move. "Just tell me one thing"
"What?"
"Do you still love me"
I hesitated not wanting to answer his question "I love my son"
"That's not what I asked"
"Why do you even care, you never loved me anyway"
"Fuck outta here with that bullshit man" he said waving me off while backing up
I laughed sarcastically "you think how you treated me was love!"
"I wasn't the perfect fucking person aight!" He yelled getting closer to me "I fucked up... but don't sit here and say I aight love yo ass!"
"What is love to you?! Cheating! Going behind my back!... if that's love then I don't want nothing to do with it"
"That's your fucking problem, you always gotta pull out the negative shit!"
Now we were in a full blown argument. Yelling back and fourth and I'm not even sure how this escalated so quickly.
"Can you blame me Trey? Damn!"
"You always tryna play to fucking victim!"
"I am the victim!... I would never think about hurting you like you hurt me"
"Ending our relationship hurt me"
I shook my head lowering my voice "After all these years you still don't get it"
"You right.... I don't get it, and you wanna know what I don't get"
I kept quiet so could continue to speak
"I don't get how you still living in the past"
"You made me this way"
"oh so now its my fault"
"I cant argue with you anymore" I said putting my hands up in surrender and going back over to the door but Trey quickly stood in front of it blocking my way. My mind was about to explode because of how frustrated he was making me "please more" I said softly
"Jordyn"
"I don't know what you want from me"
He shook his head and looked away from me while grabbing the doorknob and opening the door for me, but stopped me before I left.
"I wanna see him"
I gave him the smallest smile and nodded my head before walking out to my car getting in and starting it up. I looked back at the door to see Trey still standing their waiting for me to leave. I placed my head on the steering wheel trying to make myself pull off, but I just couldn't. I felt like I got nothing out of the conversation we just had and it was really bothering me. I needed and longed for the closure I probably was never going to get.
I turned the car off and unbuckled my seat belt getting out. As I made my way quickly back over to him, he looked hella confused. Once I got to him, I smashed my lips on his and he kissed me back. I has no idea what I was doing, but I just felt the urge to do it. His tongue slipped into my mouth as his hands grabbed my waist. We pulled away and stared in each others eyes for a second.
"I do still love you" I said before walking away back to my car and pulling off.
