I need to breathe..
I cant breathe....
Why can't I breathe?!
I cant control ANYTHING..
Where is everyone?!
Why is it so dark??
UGH!
I ask the questions over and over again, wondering if I was actually dieing.
For the first time I finally had the chance to die, I didn't want to.
It could of came LATER.
Maybe a FEW YEARS AGO.
But I have a life to live for now...
I need to help Adam with his drug issue...
What if he overdoses to kill himself..
I cant let that happen!
I have a reason to live!!!
I need to live for the band.
They need me.
But I don't know how to escape from this darkness.
Is this really what death feels like?
Is death being trapped in your own thoughts?
But I cant be dead.
I cant die. I just cant. I couldn't.
I refuse. Not now.
Not until I have had my life.
I will come back later in a few DECADES..
But not now.
Then I thought;
What if I had no control over it?
What if I couldnt do ANYTHING?!
What if all I could do was THINK.
I cant feel..
I cant see...
I cant move...
I cant do any action..
I cant save myself.
Just like most of the times I get myself into trouble.
I would need someone to save me....
Wait..
Adam saved me somehow...
From the kidnappers.. How did he save me??
That's a BIG deal.
UGH! How do I remember that? I didn't remember that when I was alive! Why did it have to come now?
And WHY am I getting annoyed about THIS when I'm DEAD.
IM DEAD. WHY CANT I UNDERSTAND THAT.
I should just relax and enjoy the peace.
This IS actually relaxing.
But seriously.. What if somehow someone actually saves me from this DEATH??
Is that possible??
Am I really truly dead??
Like, am I COMPLETLEY dead??
Is my body cold? Or did my heart just stop beating.
Ill never find out until or even IF it happens..
So I'll just relax for a while until I see a sign..
Oh wait.. I cant see.
Well, if I see ANYTHING in the first place that's a huge sign.
Man, I wish I could laugh.
But OH WAIT.
IM DEAD.
UGH IM STILL NOT LAUGHING EVEN THOUGH THATS FUNNY. I WANNA LAUGH DAMMIT.
Oh well.. Uh.. Back to just relaxing..
Okay.. Relax in the peace..
In the death surrounding you...
Rest....
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Misery Loves My Company
Fanfiction(sequel to World So Cold by BillyBobBuns) After killing Ashley's demons, three years pass by, and Ashley has to conquer Adam's demons before they take him over.