Breaking Silence

Chapter Four

My eyes were heavy as I opened them to see that I was in a large, beautifully decorated bedroom. The walls were dark olive and had very few portraits on them. All the furniture was made from the finest dark wood and everything just blended well with one another.

At the foot of the bed was a plain, dark blue shirt and a gray jogger with some underwear.

Slowly, I managed to get out of the bed as every joint in my body was in pain. My bones were stiff as I made my way to what I assumed was the bathroom door.

It was a gorgeous marble bathroom with both a huge shower and bathtub. I would have admired it even more if it wasn't for the cold marble tiles beneath my feet.

Removing my clothes, I stepped into the shower and let the warm water fall over me soothing my aching body. After I was done with cleaning my body, I changed the water to cold water as I stood still beneath it.

I always preferred cold water over warm water, but lately my body has been going through several changes.

After quite some time of just letting all thoughts leave my mind, I came out of the shower and got dressed in the clothes that were laid out for me. They smelled just like him which made me feel safe, but I knew that I would never be until it was all over.

Following my nose to lead me to the kitchen, I was greeted by an older couple and a few teenagers who began whispering as soon as they saw me. Nodding my head at them, I took a glass of water from the sink and a banana from the fruit basket on the counter, before sitting at the table.

I smiled at the older couple who returned it before they returned back to their own little conversation. The teenagers kept looking at me and whispering which made me grateful that I was wearing a long sleeved shirt.

Finishing half of the banana, I couldn't bring myself to eat the other half as I finished up my water before disposing the rest of the banana in the bin. I felt bad for wasting food when there were others who probably didn't have any, while here I was throwing away perfectly good food.

After eating little portions of food for so long, my body was now accustomed to my eating habits but I didn't mind. It just made me happier knowing that I wouldn't be here for too long before it would be my time.

Not knowing what to and I was now surrounded by new faces, I decided to go back to the room that I had come from. There was nothing else I could do since it would be quite difficult to communicate with the others without using my voice.

I thought about using it but I was too scared to do so thinking that I might get caught. If they knew that I could talk, then the others would come for me much quicker than I want them to and that couldn't happen.

My previous pack members always blamed me for my mother's death, saying that if I wasn't a coward that I could protect her, but they didn't know the truth about what truly happened. It was a memory that I wish would just vanish from my mind, but it was always there haunting me in my sleep.

Going back to the room, I ignored all the curious looks that were being thrown my way. Packs were always filled with unnecessary drama when it comes to the Alpha and I didn't want to become tangled up in it.

Not with what I was going through.

Looking out the large windows that had a beautiful view of the forest, I listened to all the happy voices of the people who lived in the pack house. They were all just having fun, enjoying themselves. Something I wished that I could do to.

Probably for what seemed like the millionth time, I tried reaching out for my wolf, but like every single time, failed.

She was either ignoring me or was gone forever. I wished that she was here with me, so that I could at least have some company and someone that I could talk to with using my voice, but she abandoned me just like my mother did.

Tears came pouring down my cheeks as memories of the two of us popped up in my head. She was smiling as her long, golden hair was being blown by the wind. Her white dress was soaking wet as she slowly walked into the water.

Suddenly, I felt his muscular arms wrap around me as my body stiffened. I wasn't prepared for this and I don't think I'll ever be.

He turned me around so that I was now staring into his silver eyes that were scanning my face.

"What's wrong?" He asked, his face filled with worry as he wiped away my tears.

I forced on a smile as I shook my head at him. It was then that realization hit him as he walked back to the bed and came back to me with a notebook and a pen.

"Maybe you could write to me instead?" He suggested, hope filling the eyes that I was now beginning to fall in love with.

Taking the notebook and the pen from him, I stared at the blank page wondering what to write. I wanted to tell him everything, but I knew that would just cause even more problems between us, and it could even be the death of him.

I decided to start things off slowly as I wrote down my name before asking for his. I had remembered that he had asked for it back at my old home and he had never got an answer.

"Alejandra." The way he said my name sent shivers down my spine. "I'm Jovano," he smiled at me as my heart melted in my chest. 

His name was different than others and I liked that. A unique name for a unique man.

"Can you talk?" He questioned, as my body immediately froze at the question. I wanted to tell him that I could, but that would be putting him in danger and I couldn't do that to him. 

I shook my head at him as my heart slowly broke at the expression on his face. All hope was gone from his eyes as he walked away from me and exited the room leaving me all alone once again, but it wasn't something I was new to.

So I crawled back into the bed trying to convince myself that I did the right thing by lying to him.