Breaking Silence

Chapter Eight

When I was done getting dressed in one of Jovano's large shirts, I took the large plate of food from the bedside table and sat down on the floor. It looked like a tasty meal, but just looking at such a large plate filled with so much food made me sick.

There was no way that I would be able to even eat half of it, but I was afraid that Jovano would be very upset with me for not eating it all, but I just couldn't.

Grabbing a fried chicken leg, I slowly began to eat it up before taking a spoonful of the mashed potatoes. The food was well prepared and had amazing flavour, but I couldn't bring myself to take another bite out of it. 

My brain had already programmed my body to taking only a few bite of food per day because this has been my diet for a few years and I don't think I can just come out of it with a snap of my fingers.

Still, it marvels me at how this diet hasn't weaken me that much or maybe it is because that I am not human. The only problem that I have is that I fall asleep quite easily after doing a lot of work and my bones are getting a little bit weak. 

Sometimes I just wish it would work faster but it seems like it enjoys taking its time to kill my body, while just torturing me in the process.

Covering back the food, I placed it on the bedside table as I sat on the floor. It was boring to just be in such a big house with nothing to, while everyone else was doing what they pleased but I was not like everyone else.

Going into a split, I decided to just stretch myself out. While in the split position, I laid flat down on my stomach as I stretched my hands out as far as they could go. I remained in that position for a good while before I steadily came back up.

After doing a few low lunges and stretching out my legs, I went into a back bend as I allowed my legs to slide beneath me as I was now splitting but with my back still bent and my hands on the floor.

I was still in the same position as the door opened to reveal a worried looking Jovano, but when he saw me he calmed down.

"I didn't know you was so flexible," he said, as he observed me. I wanted to say that there were many things he didn't know about me, but I kept my mouth shut as I moved from the position as stood up.

His eyes instantly went to the food as he took a seat on the side of the bed and patted beside him for me to come join him. I already knew that he was going to try to force feed me so I shook my head. There was no way I was going to allow him to shove a spoon of food in my mouth like I was a little child.

"Come here," he said a bit more demanding, as I went to sit besides him. "I told you to eat this food and it doesn't even have a dent in it." I knew that he would be mad, so I pointed to the food then my mouth as if to tell him I had eat from it.

"Well you clearly didn't eat enough. This plate looks like it haven't even been touched." He was reaching out to grab the plate before I stopped him and did the most ridiculous thing ever. 

I leaned in to him and opened my mouth so that he could smell my chicken breath as my way of telling him that I had eaten. When I was pulling back, he seemed to have other plans because he grabbed my hands and pulled me to him as he began roughly kissing me.

I was so shocked by his sudden movement and he took that as the opportunity to slip in his tongue as he explored my mouth. I didn't know what to do but it seemed like my body knew exactly what to as it began responding to his touch. 

Finally coming to my right senses, I pushed him away as I remembered what had happened back at my old pack. Even though it just felt so right, I just couldn't. 

"Did I do something wrong?"He asked concerned, hurt written clear as day in his eyes. I shook my head at him before wrapping my arms around him and inhaling his minty scent. It instantly calmed me when he wrapped his arms around my back, pulling me onto his lap. 

I pulled back from his chest and stared into his beautiful, silver eyes. Still, I couldn't get over the fact that this gorgeous man, let alone Alpha was chosen to be my mate. I didn't even believe that I was going to get one, yet alone one that was going to love me.

"I can't. It's too soon and I haven't had normal contact with others in a very long time." I whispered. He placed a soft, gentle kiss on my forehead.

"That's alright. I can understand why, but just know that I will always love you, " he said sweetly, with so much emotion that my heart was beating like a drum in my chest. It was like it would just jump right out of me with the speed that it was going. 

"Sounds like your heart is going explode," he chuckled, which seemed to make my heart slow once the musical sound left his lips. It just made me curious on how this one being could just change my emotions without even wanting to. It frightened me.

I just smiled up at him without saying a word, snuggling closer into him as I rested my head on his chest and tried to find a comfortable position as I savored this moment knowing that it wouldn't last forever.

But a girl can dream.