Broken

Chapter Sixteen

Bethany's pov

I woke up to see Kevin still sound asleep. He looked really peaceful. He had a small smile on his lips which made him look adorable. Wait what am I talking about he's my friend and I just got rejected by my mate. I looked to the side to see the sun rising. It looked beautiful but not even the sun could brighten up my life. I slowly got up trying not to wake up Kevin. I walked over to the bathroom and saw what a mess I was. There was bags under my eyes which were still red from crying the night before. My nose was red and my hair a mess. Thank god I woke up before Kevin, not that it really mattered. I walked back to my room to get my clothes and my phone so I could take a shower. I quickly undressed and connected my phone to my speaker. Out of all the songs that could have came on my phone chose "My Heart I surrender" by I Prevail came on.

"I'm a ghost in your eyes.
A shadow you can't seem to recognize.
I have a thought of you for every, star in the sky
But I'm scared, I'll never cross your mind.
Yeah, I'm scared.

Will our stars ever align?
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.

And I can't count the times.
I stayed awake pretending you were mine.
Now I'm left here with this emptiness inside,
Why can't I make you mine?

Will our stars ever align?
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.

Will our stars ever align?
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender."

As the song finished I realized I was crying. I tried to contain it, I didn't want to wake or worry Kevin. But the more I wanted to keep my crys in the louder I cried. I dropped to the ground and just let it out. I cried for about 5 minutes and then I finished my shower. As I got out I noticed Brenda had txted me.
"Hey Beth I'm really worried. Answer when you can ok. I love you and I'm here for you. Never forget that ok?"
I didn't know what to say in response. She was my best friend and I didn't want to lie and tell her I was fine but I don't want to tell her I wasn't ok and make her worry even more.
"Hey.. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine just have to get over it. I'll be fine though I promise. So don't worry. And I love you too." I answered her and went to my room. As I opened the door to get out of the restroom I see Kevin looking up at me worried.
"I heard you crying. Are you ok?" He said, you can see the concern in his face. "Yea I'm fine dont worry about me." I said as I walked to my desk and grabbed my comb. "We'll continue this conversation later princess. I have to go you know patrolling the area a wolf thing. I'll see you later though ok." He said as I nodded. He quickly hugged me and kissed me on the forehead and walked away. Only if he was my mate. "What!! Bethany he's not our mate and he'll never be." Phoenix growled at me. "Phoenix shut up I know that its just don't you see how much he likes us.. only if log.. if he liked us the way Kevin did these thoughts wouldn't be crossing my mind." I said as I just got whimper from her. I walked down stairs and into the kitchen seeing my mom making breakfasts. "Hey sweetie." Mom said as she gave me a small smile. "Hi mom" I said giving her a weak smile. I grabbed the pint of Rocky Road ice cream and went to sit in the living room. Nothing like ice cream and Supernatural to take my mind off things.