It's You

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-Wes-

I sat, my hands clasped together as if they were nailed shut.

My heart was beating in my best as If it were me in the hospital bed, me about to lie everything.

Courtney sat, in tears beside me, her sobs filled the once quiet halls.

I stared at the floor, some glint of hope that the doctor will come out, a skip in his step as he saved her life and we can take her home..
be happy and together.. just the last of us..

The thoughts ran through my head.
If she comes out of this hospital, alive and walking in taking her away... far far away..
Somewhere no one can hurt her somewhere she can live out the rest of her days with me, happily.

I heard the door creak as a doctor stepped out, but it wasn't ours...
I had gotten my hopes up in that split second just to drop my eyes back to the floor like heavy weights.

".. are you here for Boze?" A doctors voice called.
I could see Courtney nodding from the corner of her eye as she sat up and gestured to someone outside..

I kept my eyes set on the ground as a small party, the last of us.. came through the door.

"I'm sorry to have to break this news to you.." the doctor began.
I felt my heart shifting in my chest as if it were literally about to break.

"She's not recovering as well as we thought.. she lost.. a lot of blood and unfortunately it's caused some major internal issues." He sighed.

I felt my whole body begin to shake as my ears started to ring. Tears flooded to my eyes as I refused to look up at the doctor or anyone else.

"She's stable now but.. we don't think she will make it through the night."

No. NO. NO. This isn't suppose to happen, she's suppose to be okay! Suppose to bed healthy.
SHE WASNT SUPPOSE YO DIE.

I tried to fight off sobs, but it seemed useless as I began sniffing and crying very loudly in the hall..

I was weak.. without her I am weak..

"Please tell me there's something you can do.!" I yelled as I jumped up and gripped the doctor's shirt.

"I'm.. I'm afraid not. We've done all we could." He shook his head.

I practically threw the doctor away from me as I tried to compose myself, tears still running down my face as I did.

"You- you can go in and see her.. I'm not sure if she's awake yet.." the doctor tried to muster.

They couldn't fix her.. they COULDNT..