EXCUSE ME BUT, WHO ARE YOU?

Chapter 1: Too long without you

It could have been a better day if it wasn't raining. But obviously it wasn't a better day at all wether it rained or not. Harry was sprawled on his bed that they used to share, burrowing his head on the pillow. He has been sleepless since the day she left. He had never left this bed. It was cold, yet it didn't bothered him. He was way too depressed to even notice.

He closed his eyes, praying that she would magically appear on the door and listen to him. He was praying that she would come and just tell him that she forgave him for everything he did. He knew it was way too impossible and it would take him a miracle for that to happen, but it was worth the shot right? He thought to himself.

He opened his eyes, examining the whole room. It was too lonely without her in the same place. He missed her voice so much, and the only way that he could hear it again was just on her answering machine. He grabbed his phone dialing the same number for the last two weeks. And hearing the same thing over and over again.

"Hi! This is Brianna! I'm maybe or may not be with harry right now! Just too busy. Please leave a message after the beep."

He had been leaving the same message. "Please.. Call me back.. I need you.. And I love you.. Please..." Every time he leaves a message, he cries.

After leaving the message, he buried his face into the bed again, hoping that he could smell her strawberry scented shampoo that she uses. It feels like it's been years since she left, even though it's just been weeks. Without her right next to him is just like hell.

The door suddenly opened. Louis was looking at harry. He hates to see him all broken up to pieces.

Louis sat on the edge of the bed, making it sink a little. "Harry? Would you like some breakfast?"

"I'm not hungry." He said. "I'm fine. " he lied.

"But you need to eat." Louis said sounding so concerned. Louis knew that he wasn't fine at all. "You haven't ate anything since Tuesday."

"I can handle myself Lou, just leave me alone ." He said, sitting up.

"Me and el are going out for a bit. Anything you need?" He shrugged. "Alright. I'm going to bring pizza instead. " Louis said, as he closed the door.

Harry grabbed his phone, searching for her photo. He looked at it with a sad smile, memories, came flashing back to him.

This photo was taken by the paparazzi back when they were both in the street fare. She looked so happy, and everything in the picture was blurry except her smiling face. She had a big teddy bear on her arms as they both walked in the side walk. The memory was happy yet painful at the same time.

Painful because he knew that it would never happen again.

She wasn't dead, but it was way too hard to accept that she's gone.

Things have changed since she left. He haven't got out for a while, no sunshine, no fresh air for two weeks.

He was trying to do things that he used to do without her, but it was useless. It's still the same. He's not complete without her next to him. Everything in his room reminds him of her.

They used to cuddle in this bed. Share the same pillow, they sit on the floor playing monopoly. He would often ran up to her and just kiss her out of the blue. Tell her everyday that he loves her.

He did it for a short period of time, but he was sure that every single thing came from his heart. He meant and treasured every single second of it.

"I wish that things didn't have to be this way. If I could just go back to the start, I would change. I would." He said, as tears were spilling out his eyes.

Another knock on the door, interrupted him.

"Harry?" Niall walked inside. "Oh, god. You look like crap."

"Thank you Niall." He rolled his eyes. "Do you need something?"

Niall shrugged. "No. Liam just asked me to look after you." He said, putting his nap sack on the chair just next to Harry's window.

"Why? Where did he go?"

"He and Sophia went out. "Niall said, getting something from his nap sack. "They're all with their girlfriends today. Which leaves me and you stuck together." He said with a chuckle, trying to cheer harry up.

Harry gave him a fake chuckle. "0bviously." He buried his head on the pillow again, receiving a groan from Niall.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Niall pats him on the back, wondering if talking about the situation was going to clear his mind.

Harry shot out of bed. He was looking forward to the day when Louis would do this, but he never actually did. Louis was still angry at him, and thought that when Brianna left him, it was actually a good thing.

He looked at Niall sadly."silence means yes." Niall stated, grabbing the chips from the bag.

"I know you don't feel okay. " Niall started. "But we don't want you to be like this. " he puts a hand on Harry's shoulder. "You are better than this harry. You don't just lock up yourself when you have a problem."

"This is not an ordinary problem Niall. She was the reason why I was here in the first place. She was my reason why I joined xfactor. The reason why i dreamed big. And now, she's just gone. I have treated her like sh----'

"No cussing!" Niall yelled, making harry stop.

"The way she shouldn't have. And now, I don't think that anything that I do even matters! because she was the only reason why." Harry looked At his hand, as He crumpled the sheets with anger. "I'm just the worst human being on earth Niall."

Niall hugged harry. It was the least that he could do. But harry seemed to appreciate it because he hugged Niall back, as he cried.

"Things happen for a reason harry. We don't know what reason that is, but I'm sure that if she is really for you, she'll be back." He soothed Harry's back.

"Are you sure?" Harry broke the hug. He looked at Niall's blue eyes.

Niall nodded. "Yes harry. I'm sure."

It was the first time in two weeks that harry had talked about her. He never actually talked to anyone unless he was asked.

"And harry? You better take a shower. You stink mate." Niall joked as harry threw his pillow across the room, hitting Niall on the head, chuckling.

"Do you want to eat? I brought Nandos." Niall said. "Go out of you're ready." Niall shuts the door after speaking.

Harry stood up, and stretched and grabbed his phone, dialing her number once again.

"Brianna, it's been two weeks and it seemed like it's been years. I know that you can hear me. And all I wanted to say is, I miss you. Too long without you just makes me crazy." He sighed. "But I'll try. You know me. I'll try to forget for a while for your sake. I love you so much." He puts his phone down, and closes his eyes.

I really need to get better. Because this is not working anymore. Locking myself inside my room wont take me anywhere but makes me feel worst. He thought to himself, and went to the bathroom. I need to change for the better. I need to be composed for her.

I need to stop thinking about her.