[Dec. 10, 2019 #1 in JBFF]
The bad boys always want the good girl to be bad for them but what happends when the bad girl wants the good boy to be bad just for her?
"You are way too good," she said to me.
"Way too good?" I asked, raising my eyebrow...
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It was late when I finally arrived in Seattle and I deeply inhaled the air of my home town, happy to be able to be here again. I couldn't wait to see my parents and to hold my siblings in my arms and to see all the other people I used to hang out with before I moved.
I had asked one of my old friends who I always used to hang out with to come pick me up from the station and while I was waiting for her, I was just staring into the distance and tried to think about anything but him.
I wanted come back home to get my mind off of things and not to replay them in my mind over and over again even though it was a very hard thing to do but I needed to do this for myself so I wouldn't go crazy.
Guess how that turned out?
No matter what I did, he was on my mind. When I closed eyes I saw him and when I looked into the distance he was in my head. It was like I couldn't get rid of him no matter how hard I tried and I really wanted to because at this point he didn't make me feel good and I just wanted to feel better than I was doing when I thought about it.
I couldn't stop thinking about what happened at college and the more of thought about it the more I started to think that I was too hard to him maybe. Everything that I said to him was out of anger and maybe if I had not been so angry at him things would've turned out in a different way.
The things that I had said weren't exactly wrong but I could have said them in a nicer way.
Even though he was acting like a bad boy, I knew that deep inside he was still shy, sensitive and hurt very easily and I might've been very hurt at that moment and I still was but I think that I had hurt him too with my words.
I wished I could turn back time so I could make everything undone and take back everything I said and I wish that everything would just be fine between me and him.
Despite of all the things that Justin had done, that made me act the way that I acted, I still liked him very very much at the end of the day and I seriously wanted us to work out.
I should've tried to make this work way back, when I had a chance to and being honest it was me who ruined everything. I regretted it so much that I wasn't just straightforward with him and that I didn't tell him about my feelings because if I had done that we wouldn't be in the situation right now.
