First and Last Love- Shawn Mendes

Unfold the Note

I was so confused. Very slick of him to slide the note into my back pocket, to slick. I feel like he must've been planning that shit for a while.

I was trying to trust him and not read it. I'm really nervous maybe he can't handle all of this. We are basically living together at this point maybe he isn't ready for it and just wants to enjoy his tour.

I'm trying not to doubt and question everything right now but my trust in the universe is not very prominent.We head into the box that Andrew and the production team sit in as the concert is going on.

All the family was in there. I'm so emerged in this atmosphere he created that I didn't even check my phone. I didn't even check the time he completely submerged me. I forgot everything that was going on in my life.

Seeing how many people he has inspired, that person to person connection he creates is so magical.

And then...He starts to sing

She'll be the one who breaks my heart

She'll be the love I can't let go

She'll be the light who breaks my dark

She'll be the love I can't let go

But how can I not try?

I am so in love with him it felt like my chest was being ripped open.I met Charlie for the first time he's such an honest and real person I loved talking to him.When he ended the concert it brought tears to eyes of how proud I was of him.

I couldn't fathom how much I escaped during those two hours and a half hours, it was incredible.It was time that I read what was sitting in my back pocket. My pulse had been racing all night but now it was accelerating to an even faster speed.

I could feel the blood racing to get to the rest of my body.

We go back to the same backstage room we were in before. Everyone was so much happier and it felt like the atmosphere had been brought to life.

I couldn't wait to see him, every inch of me needed him. I didn't feel complete standing without him.

After mingling with his family and other parts of the team I was getting to know slowly but surely.

Andrew showed me around the backstage where only the musicians are allowed to go to during showtimes.

"This is amazing Andrew but where is Shawn?" He pauses to open his mouth in response

I hear a footstep as his arms wrap around me from behind. I felt the warmth and love again.

"I will leave you two to it..." As he walks out of the cement doors.

"Hi! Hi! Hi! You were so amazing" I spurt out in disbelief, talking a million miles an hour with a slight nervous stutter in my voice. I turn to face him, my arms resting on in the crook of his elbow his hands resting on my waist.

"Thank you, baby, I'm on a high on life right now"He face is glistening with sweat his lungs still needing air.

I've never seen him smile so full and blissful.

He grabs my hand urgently "C'mon!" He guides me through this dark route to how he gets on stage, his hand latched in mine the entire time.

I can't imagine the rush he feels kneeling underneath there before he goes on every night.

We walk up the steps on the empty stage...

"This is magical." I walk up there and spread my arms open embracing everything.