First and Last Love- Shawn Mendes

Our First Time

We had been waiting for this moment for what feels like forever. We always seem to get interrupted, but nothing was holding us back.

Tonight was our night to finally be with each other.

There was so much anticipation in the air I could feel it brewing between us.

The limo pulls up to my house and I scoot my bum across the seat as he holds the door open.

We run inside I cant get the key in the door fast enough, were laughing at my keys fumbling in my hands.

I open the door first and stand behind it as Shawn walks in behind me. I slam the door shut behind him. He pins me against the door and grazes his tongue against mine.

He his lips suck again my neck and my head nods back in response. We run up the stairs together I'm pulling him as I take the lead.

Complete silence fell upon us after the giggling of excitement has dulled down once we reached the room.

We stood there in front of each other.

I took a step toward him as we began this journey.

My hands ran down his shirt till I found the first button, my fingers couldn't seem to move fast enough. Once I had reached the last button, his skin exposed to me, i reached my hands up his body and pushed the shirt off his shoulder

I sat on the edge of the bed as he stood above me, leaning forward his lips moving with mine.

I crossed my arms and grabbed the hem of my shirt and lifted it off my shoulders. "Babe what is that" giggling catching his breath, looking at my boobs.

I look down and forgot I was wearing sticky boobs.

" Oh it's a strapless bra, it sticks to your boobs," I say as I turn around and peel them off.

"Okay." He laughs as he kisses my shoulder from behind me.I turn around out bare chests pressing against each other.

I feel myself moving backwards toward the bed, I put my hand behind me to catch myself.I could feel my heart banging against the walls in my chest in nerve and excitement.

I pull him by his belt buckle onto the bed. I lay on my back his body onto of me.He runs his hand down my body with no fabric stopping the track of his fingers. He undoes the button and zipper on my jean skirt and pulls it off my legs without leaving my eyes.

He rolls onto his back I roll onto of him and undo his belt.there has never been a more riveting feeling than being so vulnerable, open and free to the person who means most to you. Our lips addicted to each other, our bodies fit together like a lock and key.

Our breathing moving exhaling in sync in a heavy, loving manner. This was my first time, I will remember this forever and it could not have been more perfect.

A moment of agreement of this memory though.

"Are you sure?" He looked down at me smiling nodding his head.

'Yes I'm sure" I giggle breathlessly. 

The after is what is going to stick with me. Our warm bodies holding each other, I could feel his heartbeat slow down, I could feel his breathing becoming less prominent. It was a beautiful silence, not an awkward silence

Everything was meant to be, he honestly left me speechless. The noise of our connection filled the air.

He turned to face me, our noses close to touching. His hand resting on the side of my body, playing with my hair that curled down my back.

"I love you, Kaya Marie James."

"I love you more " I kiss him once, the kind of kiss where you have to pause and absorb it.

"How do you feel?" he asked.

"Like I'm gonna remember this moment for a long time."

"I will too" drawing circles on my back.

"Was I... good?" I ask nervously asking myself why I even asked that question.

"Of course you were" he answered as though I just asked worlds dumbest question.

"You gotta stop doubting yourself Kaya Marie, you don't give yourself enough credit" His arms moved to my face.

"Were both faults at that?" I say.

We should probably put some clothes on because the family will be home soon. Yet again they probably already know why we left so urgently.."

"Ugh god I wanted to be the perfect innocent girlfriend," I say covering my face knowing that it's so obvious now.

"They already thought we were doing it ages ago" he shrugs slightly.

"You guys talked about it?" I asked a little weirded out.

"No not really I could just tell they had the assumption we did it at your 19th, I came home with a hickey remember"

"Oh...yea.That was a pretty dingy bathroom." I scrunch my face and remember the night I got drunk and almost lost it to Shawn on a bathroom counter in a bar.

"Was I good?" He asked a little too confidently.

"I don't have anything to compare it to..but nobody has ever made me feel that way before."

He doesn't say anything. He turns to lay on his back and places his hands on his stomach.

He looks down at me, his dark eyes feel like light entering my soul. His hair tossed and curled, it fell perfectly on his forehead.

"Come here" he stretches both arms out and smirks.I laugh. My chest and arms rest into him. 

This was my first time, and it felt perfect.