The Man With Fifteen Questions

Am I doing it right?

The problem with love is it could be like death or giving birth. It’s unpredictable despite the signs and the symptoms. That is why some people would often say that people in love seemed stupid. I can’t argue with that. I seem stupid because I am clueless. I’m clueless on what to do or what to say next to my ex-fiancée.

That’s why it amaze me how people manage to be in a relationship. And a lot of people in our workplace are in a relationship (geeks and nerds included) that’s why it’s tempting for me to ask how each couple ended up with each other. It was often surprising when I see two strangers then later on knowing that they’re now a couple. I mean, how the hell did that happen? When it did even started? How come it’s harder for me to get the woman I’ve been in relationship before?

Do I sound bitter? I’m afraid so.

But of course I knew the answer to my question. I’ve been answering them myself aren’t I?

It’s harder for me because I am trying to get back with someone I hurt before. This is why I have no guarantee that I’m on the right track and that she’ll believe or listen to every word I’ll say to her. But I’m not giving up. So I tried a different tactic. Often, I stop myself from blurting out what was really on my mind. I accidentally do a reverse psychology approach which I prove very effective because finally, I caught her attention.  

But I no longer want my ex-fiancée to label me as one of her employees. Okay, maybe she sees me as a colleague and that might be a better and acceptable term.

But that’s not what I want.

I’m a very ambitious individual and it's not bad to ask for a promotion sometimes, right?

So I told her, I want to be her husband.