Random emo shit

I miss you

I miss you.

I'm sorry.

I'm not reaching out to you to convince you I'm not a bad person.

I'm not writing this to get you back in my life.

Although it would be nice to hear your voice again,

To feel your presence beside me,

I know you can't

And I know you won't.

And that's my fault.

I didn't love you.

I loved the idea of you.

That's what you said and now I know that you're right

I do love you,

But I wanted us to be like them.

Like every book, movie and fake relationship.

Going for so long without someone

I didn't know what it's like I still don't and I fear I'm going to repeat my mistakes

And I don't want to

Because you all deserve so much better.

Someone who won't care if you look insane

Someone who isn't afraid to love for fear of societies judgments.

Who will love you unconditionally

Someone who is everything I'm not.

I hope you have that person,

That you are free

It's taken me a while.

Not to realise the fact that I was wrong

But to contact you.

I go to message you so many times,

But I never send anything,

No words sound right,

No sentence expresses my truth.

And if you even read this far, that's all I want,

Is you to hear me out,

I don't want you're emotions to change towards me,

I don't want sympathy or sadness or regret or anything.

You did nothing wrong and everything right.

All I want is to move on,

Is for you to and for you to know I am.

I'm not lying when I say I miss you,

And some part of me hopes you do too;

But just like you're childhood house, one day you have to move on,

With only the memories tucked away and you one day might pull out the draw to remember.

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