Random emo shit

Tell me I'll be okay

Hey are you awake?

I'm laying here and this silence
Is kinda just squeezing me.

Compressing my skin and bones,
There's just so much tightness
In my chest.

And I feel as if any second,
Any breeze that slips through my open window,
Will turn every part of me to dust.

What do I do?

I can't cry

I can't cry

I won't-

Please I need you right now

I need you to tell me that it'll be okay

That one day I won't be a disappointment
a disease
Threatening
Offending every person in sight
Sickening them with my existence

I need you to tell me that one day
I'll be able to smile
To laugh
Without force
Without the superficialness

For it to be natural

For me to be free
From the confines of these walls
From the restrictions this
Cage of skin places on me

From the pressure of every cavity
In my body.

Even though I know it isn't true

I need you to help me fantasise

To temporarily suspend my thoughts on
The impossible
The improbable
To
If only for a while
Tell myself I'll be okay

To believe that one day
I'll care if I lose myself
If I lose those close to me

If I die.

Please answer me.