Not For Me | A Temilio Fanfiction

Feelings Unblurred

Tessa POV:

I woke up in the back of the van next to Emilio, his arm around me. Instead of getting up, I decide to just lay there for a moment. I thought about what Erica said, about why Emilio left during the video. You know, Emilio isn't that bad, I kind of like him myself, but I can't, how would the people react? I get up from under his arm. I can't do this. I get rushed with feelings and emotions. Do I like Emilio? What about 'Chessa'? How would the people react if they find out I like Emilio? How would Jake react? I mean, we are such good friends, what if I ruin that?

I can't. I want to go home.

Emilio POV:

I wake up in the backseat of the team 10 van. Alone. I wonder where Tessa is. I run my hands through my hair as my eyes adjust to the light from outside. We spent the night here! I wonder if team 10 is worried about where we are. I get out of the van and see Tessa sitting on the hood. I go sit beside her. She has that look on her face again. "What's up?" I ask. "Nothing." I turn to look her in the eye, "What's the problem?" Then there we are, sitting on the front hood of our car, looking each other in the eye, waiting for the other to speak. She finally breaks and looks down.

"I don't know Emilio," she starts. "I. Don't. Know. I want to, but I don't. I don't because I don't know what the heck I'm feeling right now. I have so many mixed emotions and it's- it's destroying me!" She starts getting teary-eyed, it hurts me to see her like this. "I want this, I want that. I just want peace! I want to be able to fall asleep without someone on my mind. I want to see someone and not see what I want to see in my mind. I want to be satisfied with a label settled at friends."

I put my arm around her and she rests her head on my shoulder. I wonder if she's talking about me. I hope she's talking about me. Not Chance.

Tessa POV:

Let's make this clear. I don't like Chance. But the fans like me and him. Why did I have to play that stupid spin the wheel game. But then again, if I didn't, I wouldn't know about Emilio's possible feelings for me. I want Emilio to like me. I just wish there wasn't so many other variables in this equation.

"This was fun." I mumble, my cheek against his shoulder. "I know." He smiles. "We should do it again." I suggest, he moves to look at me surprised but happy. "You're fun to be around." I finish up. He smiles but looked away so I couldn't see it. "We should head back to the house. You know they already have 124 guesses for what we could have been doing." He says. "They don't need to know." I say looking ahead at the skies in front of me.