Say you Love me (S. Gecko)

Power

     Song of the Chapter: Power By Little Mix

               9:00am

                  It has been weeks since I tried to leave and it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. One day we are happy and the next he is high and I'm ignoring him. I tried to get him to stay clean, but he won't. I think he misses Richie, he just doesn't want to admit it. I'm getting tired of having to clean up after him and be careful about what I say. I've been talking to Kate and she says I can leave Seth and come back home with her. I miss my sister, brother, and my dad. I miss my dad the most knowing I won't see him anymore. It gets boring sitting in this motel room dwelling in your own thoughts. I should have left with Kate. I think I'm slowly losing my mind here. Seth drives me up a wall and I don't know what to do anymore. I think it's time I get myself together and stop trying to fix him if he doesn't want to be fixed. I need to fix myself and be happy about where I am. I'm tired of him having all the power here I need to take control. Seth doesn't know what the hell he is doing anymore. He is mostly high and making all the wrong choices. It's time I choose for myself. 

        1:00pm

               Seth has finally woken up from his drug induced nap. " Seth we need to talk." "Not now Mel." "Yes now I'm tired of staying in this room and I'm tired of you making all the calls in what we do." "Well last time I checked-" "Last time I checked you are always sleeping or getting high." "So we are going there." "Yeah, you know, yeah we are." " If you are so tired of my bullshit you can leave." " Well been there done that see how that worked out, I'M STILL HERE." "NOT MY FAULT." "You're right it's mine-----it's my fault for ever staying with you" I pushed him back. "It's my fault for trying to fix you." *Push* " It's my fault for being the only one who stayed with you when you needed someone." *Push* "And it's my fault for *push* loving *push* you*push*" "It's all my fault isn't it Seth Gecko." I gave him one final push and he fell into the wall. " You won't even look at me will you." He keeps his eyes on the floor. "Of course not why would you?" I turn away from him, grab my bag, and walk out the door. I'm the one who's in control. He's the man, but I got the power. 

5 Days Later

          "Hey Kate it's me *sighs* I figured staying with Seth will just keep hurting him and me. I can't do it anymore, I can't keep being powerless around him. I lost who I was now I'm gonna get it back. I got the power to do what I need to do. What I want to do. It still sucks waking up and Seth not being there but I know its for the best. I don't need him to be happy. I just need to know that you're safe. So get back to me as soon as you get this okay. I miss you so much. Your sister Melanie." *Click* I get up off the bed in my new motel room. It's been 5 days since I've seen Seth and I don't know if I ever want to go down that path ever again. I still love him of course, but there is so much one can take and I hit my breaking point. I now feel happy and free. I have the power to dictate my life. 

     I change and put my hair into a messy ponytail with a few strands loose. I grab my purse and I leave. I get in the car I took from Seth and go to the market, because a girl has got to eat. I finally get to the market and get a cart. Hmmmm what to look for first. I go through the fruit section and the vegetables. I start going down the cereal aisle when I bump in to someone.

"Oh I'm sorry-" I look up and its Seth... Great. I go to turn around when a hand grabs my cart. "What Seth, what do you want now." " I need my partner back." "Oh I'm sorry the person you tried to reach is unavailable, please try again later at a more convenient time. Buh-Bye." I finish turning away from him and practically run from him while he is confused on what I just said. 

        I finally finish my shopping, pay for it, and check out. I'm almost to my car when I hear fighting. 

   "Bring it on, give it your best shot."

     Seth..... No Mel you are finally ride of him...... You don't need him, you are strong and independent. If you go back you will forever be in that cycle. Maybe I should save him and leave. Damn my good conscious.... I open my car and grab my chain and walk over to where they are fighting. I see 5 guys against Seth, of course it's five guys against him, I wonder what he said. I see the main guy about two hit him again to I spin  my chain around then throw it at him and it wraps around his wrist.

     "What the hell." I pull it so he falls to the floor. "Now that's not fair, 5 against one lets try to even those odds as much as possible." I smirk at them as they all glare at me. Two guys come at me  and I spin my chain over my head and hit both of them across the face with it. They shake it off and continue so I do it again harder than the last time. I notice Seth has got out of the two guys hold and is now fighting them. I see the main guy go to stab him. I spin my chain around to gain momentum, then I throw it to wrap around the the knife. It wraps around the knife and I pull it to me. It flies into my hand and I twist it around and get into a fighting pose.

     The guys all start to run away slowly leaving just Seth and me. " Well Gecko boy looks like I saved your ass yet again." "Huh last time I checked you walked out." " I left for both of our own goods, you weren't getting clean and I couldn't make you, looks like you're still using." "So what if I am." "Then you don't need me then." I go to walk away." Wait.... I need my partner back... I need you...." " Huh.... Fine, but lets get one thing straight, you no longer make the choices, I do." "Deal." " I'm not done, there will no longer be an us and if I feel like we are going back to that place we were at I'm gone. Got it."  " So what we have is done." " Until you get your shit together and stop using, yes what we have is done." He nods and looks down at me.   "Hey Gecko boy, now I got the power ."