Say you Love me (S. Gecko)

Moving out...

Song of the Chapter: Case Closed- Little Mix

Today's the day, the day for me to either move next door or just leave all together. I got no sleep last night, all I could do is think about the decision I had to make. Seth slept off his high so he slept good. I don't know what to do anymore, I love him but I can't keep doing this with him. If he keeps using who knows how long he has. I don't want to lose him, not to this. I wonder if I left would he track me down and convince me to come back or would he just let me leave and never look for me. I made up my mind I'm going to stay in the room next door and see how he reacts, I packed my bags while Seth was sleeping. So I'm ready to go. I get out of the bed and grab my bags. I look at Seth, sigh, and walk out. I close the door lightly so it doesn't wake him I go to the room next to us and take out the key. I put it into the door and open it. It's nothing special looks the same as the other room.

I don't know if I can do this, can I really stay away from him? I know I have to, but can I? I just want to go back to our room and get back in the bed and pretend this never happened. I know if I do go back I'll be in an endless loop of heartbreak and crying. If I don't go through with this it will never get better, it has to get better. I lay down in the bed and try to go to sleep, but I can't not without him. I don't think I can wait forever, but that's how it's gonna be. I just hope this works and it's not for nothing. I slowly fall asleep with my thoughts haunting my dreams......

I wake up to things being thrown from the room next to us.... I mean me..... Seth realizes I'm gone, he probably thinks I really left him, I hope he reads my note, just to maybe understand why I'm doing this. Also I hope the clerk doesn't sell me out to Seth and tells him I'm still here, just in the room next door. I think he will sell me out though. I hear the door slam and I know it's only minutes, maybe seconds, till Seth knocks on my door and I'm back in the endless loop. Maybe if I don't open the door he will think I'm not hear and leave, maybe give up on me. Its highly unlikely but I can hope. I slowly peak out the window and see Seth walk into the lobby. I make sure the windows closed and the doors are locked, before he gets here. Any minute now and he'll knock on the door, more likely to bang on it. I don't know what I'll do if he does. Will I go back or stay here and ask for time alone? I think I know the answer I just don't want to admit it. I'm shaken out of my thoughts by banging on the door, I knew it...

"MEL OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!" I stay where I am on the bed. Go away...Go away.... Please go away. "I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE MELANIE FULLER!" You just don't go away do you?? I know he will pick the lock soon, so I get up and walk to the bathroom and lock the door. I hear the door slam against the wall a few minutes later. "WHERE ARE YOU?!?!" Please just leave... I'm begging you.... "You're in the bathroom aren't you?" Well he's not yelling anymore so that's a good sign. He tries to open the door, but I locked it. "Open up Blue please." "Go away Seth I'm tired of this endless loop we are in." "Please open the door." "No." He picks the bathroom lock and walks in. "GET OUT SETH GECKO, GET OUT!" "No ." "I need you to leave me alone."  I can feel myself slowly giving into him.  "Please Blue I need you." "Why me Seth Gecko, why me?" "Because I love you." Fuck... I open the door slowly and he pulls me into his arms and it's like I never left. I know my plan didn't work, I did this for nothing. Here comes the endless cycle of emotions. For me they'll never be....

Case Closed