Insomniac (taekook)

Part 17

I seem to having quite bit of difficulty stopping myself. We continue eagerly , hungrily opening our mouths , tongues clashing and then going smooth once again , our lips moving in sinc like some kind of rehearsed dance routine.
He brings his hand to my waist and begins to rubs my sides teasingly , but gently. I bring mine to his hair and lightly tug , causing a slight moan to be emitted from his mouth which is still firmly pressed against mine.
This little moan seems to be some kind of wake up call.
What the fuck am I doing? Snogging a stranger.
No Jungkook isn't a stranger , I've slept with him enough times to know there is nothing weird about him. Well nothing weirder than me anyway.
But still. I can't. Not with him. We agreed , platonic.

I pull away , perhaps a little to harshly. FHis face looks confused and he immediately goes to dive back in.

"Jungkook." I say , pushing his chest lightly.

"This is wrong I'm sorry." I say , slightly embarrassed that I let him take it as far as it got.

I'm about to say something else. Something along the lines of
'Sorry but I'm just not ready yet ya feel?'
But before the words can leave my mouth , they are forced back down my throat by Jeons impressive tongue.
My hands are in his chest , it would be so easy for me to push him away.
But I don't.

We continue to kiss , but a little bit gentler this time. He's confident I'm not going to pull away , even though I want to so bad , Oh but its good , horribly good.
His lips (if thin) are the softest things I've ever felt , it feels like I'm kissing a cloud , or maybe a sheep.
And I thought Namjoon's lips were heaven.
Namjoon.
Namjoon.
Shit I've let my mind wander.
I struggle to keep up the rhythm of the kiss ( which shouldn't even be happening in the first place ) I falter a bit but Jungkook manages to help by licking at my bottom lip and making sure to keep me upright.
His hands that were previously on my waist , now make their way to my chest , carefully pressing me on to the mattress.
Oh shit.

He gently strokes my cheek , tilting his head even more so he can get his tongue in ever last little section on my mouth.
God I've missed this I've missed this so much. To be fucking worshipped.
To not have to speak but to still know someone's feelings.
It's so good , it's so good , it's so good , it's... too good.

I push him off again , harder this time. He's got to know I mean business.

"Jungkook stop." I say firmly.
"Jungkook this is a mistake we can't do this."

I almost take pity in seeing his crestfallen expression.
"Why not?" He says.
His whole aura has suddenly gone from 'daddy choke me' to a child who has just been told he doesn't get his pudding.

"We agreed it would be a platonic realionshi-."

"That's bull Tae and you know it! I liked you from when I first saw you I really did and I know you did too!" He accuses.

"Jungkook you shag other people."

"I'll stop! I promise I will , I'll stop for you."

"Jungkook we really don't know each other this isn't love at first sight."

"It is! I saw you in my dreams Tae you were there telling me it was all ok!"

"You just imagined that Kook."

"No I didn't you said something similar."

Shit he has a good memory.

"Please Taehyung please! I'll stop sleeping around I promise I won't even talk to cherry or any of the other if that's what you want." He pleads desperately.

"No Jungkook."

He looks down.

"This is because I'm not Namjoon isn't it?" He mutters darkly.

"What!? No no of course not don't be silly!"

"You can't spend your life pining after a dead guy Tae , you said it yourself he's gone and he's not coming back , it's been over a year this will be good for you!"
He insist.
"Tae I promise we can sleep together every night and I'll tell you stories and you can tell them to me and I'll take care of you and look after you and help you revise and we'll watch films and eat instant noodles and all the dumb romancy bullshit I promise!"

He looks up at me with hopeful eyes.

"So what about it? Taehyung will you go out with me?"

I take a long and deep breath.

"No."

I've eaten nothing but crumpets all day and I'm so unmotivated to do anything and I have to go to loads of bullshit modern art galleries for my art coursework so that should be absolutely bloody marvellous