Insomniac (taekook)

Part 9

Tae POV

"Is it warm enough? Are you comfortable? Do you want to sleep on the other side?" He asked.

I chuckled at his generosity , but shook my head.

I was planning on meeting up a few more times before eventually agreeing on the deal the younger made. But recently my dreams seem to have taken a different approach at fucking up my mind.
They used to focus on the blood , the drop of his lifeless body , the noise of his last rapid , shallow breaths.
But now they seem to focus more on the killer , making up stuff that wasn't there.
It zooms in on his evil smirk , already bloodied knife clutched between black unwashed hands.
I don't remember seeing that.
Or sometimes , occasionally , it will just be me and Namjoon lying in bed , talking about all the useless crap we used to talk about. Then suddenly it will change and I'll turn over to see his blank , glassy eyes boring in to my soul.
Those are the worst by far.
I'll wake up crying and missing him , because it's the little things you remember.

I hardly remember the drunken nights out we spent together or all the weird unorthodox places we fucked. But I remember our first bubble bath , or the first time he took me to A and E for breaking my toe or the first time he smashed my favourite mug and tried to replace it with a replica ( yes this happened more than once )

I can still feel his arms around me when I wake up , covered in sweat and terrified.
At least , I think it's him.
Now I'm not so sure.

Jungkook's body lying next to mine is a poor substitute for Namjoon , but I can't exactly complain.
I do kind of miss bedtime hugs , even if they aren't Namjoon's.

"H-hey Jungkook?"

"Yeah?"

"Would it be alright if... you hugged me?" I asked.

There's a short pause and I bite my lip.

"Yeah sure."

His feet are warm compared to mine and he hisses the contact.

"Bloody hell your feet are cold." He gasps.

I giggle and wrap his arms around my waist and sigh in content.

"I never realised you would be this caring." I say.

"Yeah well don't tell anyone , wouldn't want to ruin my bad boy reputation would I?"

I sigh again. If I close my eyes hard enough I can almost imagine it's him.

"Taehyung?"
"Namjoon"
"You smell nice by the way."
"Oh really? Like what?"
"Like An iced Carmel latte mixed with watermelon and coconut shampoo and chupa chupa lollipops and the smell of a birthday candle when you first blow it out and freshly cut grass and a peeled nectarine and baby powder and-"

"Taehyung?"
I was swiftly pulled out of memory lane back in to reality but a familiar voice.

"Yes Jungkook?"

"You smell nice."

"Oh really? Like what?"

"Kinda like the fruit and vegetable isle in a supermarket."

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