Insomniac (taekook)

Part 32

Just to clarify this is what happened the night before when Jungkook had to go to Jimin's room and left Tae
This kind of explains a lot of things but as an ending it might kind of disappoint you coz I think it's a bit bad
But there's only like a few more chapters left and then it's done

I knock on the door , already hearing yells from behind it.

I hear Yoongi telling whoever it is to fuck off.
I eventually open the door myself.

I see an outraged and red faced Yoongi standing fully clothed in the room , while a meek Jimin sobs in his hands on the edge of his bed.

"Oh brilliant , he's here it's like a fucking family reunion!" He yells.

"It's the middle of the night what happened?" I say , exasperated and slightly amused by the scene in front of me.

"That's a lovely question Jungkook , go on Jimin what do you have to say for yourself?"

"I-we"

"Go on Jimin spit it out!" He yells again.

I'm pissed off now , I'm sick of him talking to Jimin like this.

"Hey don't talk to him like that, I'm sick of you putting him down all the time!" I yell equally as loud.

"Oh I'm sorry it's not like I've literally saved your balls or anything , it's not like I literally had to sell my soul to cover everything up for you , it's not like I spend every waking night wondering if they'll come knocking on my dorm door to lock me up!"

"What are you talking about?" I ask.
I've completely lost the plot at this point , no ones giving me any clues.

"If you don't stop talking nonsense then I'll leave."I say firmly , heading for the door.

"You weren't in a car crash!" Jimin yells.

I stand still , halfway to the door , but then make my way back.

"What?"

"The car crash, it didn't happen , none of the shit did we lied , we lied about mum and dad dying because they were too ashamed of you and were scared the plan wouldn't work and that you'd get sent to prison or something." He says quietly.

"But- but why would I be in prison?"

Yoongi sighs and sits down on the other bed , the anger suddenly drained out of him.

"Because you killed someone , that night , we told you it was a car crash because you wouldn't remember anything."

"But-"

"I did it for Jimin not for you." He spat "not that I get any thanks for it, pointless now you know , mayaswell hand yourself in and me along with you."

I stand there speechless.

And then it hits me
Like a fucking brick

The night
The same night Namjoon died

"Who-who did I kill?" I ask in a small voice.

Yoongi chuckles , but it's not happy.

"Well that's part of the problem , all was goin fine until Jimin told me that pretty boy you were hanging out with was no other than his fucking boyfriend."

My mouth goes dry.
Oh sweet holy Jesus

I killed him I fucking killed Namjoon
I'm the reason Tae gets nightmares
I'm the reason he's like this

Oh my fucking god I threw a funeral for a person I killed!

Then another thing hits.

"Mum and dad? Why did u call them that?"

He looks down again
I can see fresh tears leaking down his face and landing in a little comical puddle in the floor.

"Well that's another thing ... I'm your brother."

So on top of all this crap I am now told I had a very sexual crush on my brother.

Great

I hear Yoongi yelling profanities after me as I bolt out the room , down the corridor and out the fucking building.

I run
I don't stop
I don't stop till I'm somewhere I don't know
I think it's one of the football fields near the university they use for like all kinds of sports.

There's nothing around me but trees and space.

I crouch down in a little spot and throw up
There's ringing in my ears and tears streaming down my face like waterfalls and I haven't even had a proper chance to think about how fucking insane everything feels

I lift my head up and scream
I scream until it feels like there's no air left in my body
I scream until my ear drums can't take it anymore
I scream so loud the birds in close trees fly away

I kick and yell and punch the trees , ground anything I can use , which isn't much considering I'm nowhere

I eventually collapse , beaten up and blood pouring from several areas.

I head back when I see the first few glimpses of sun make their way over the surrounding fields and buildings.

Good morning to me

How was your day M'lads?