that night ➳ yoonjin

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  after that day we hardly spoke i sat in the back admiring you.
  was that weird? i guess it was but i had a crush on you back then i wouldn't dare admit it now i don't mind i mean after all im in love with you.
  i went on my days whenever you passed by i smiled and stared at you until you were no longer in my vision.
did i mention it had been 3 week since we last spoke everyone at this point knew i had a crush on you but it was topic they didn't dare to bring up.
i walked into my class that day excited to be able to stare at you for an hour sure it pained me when girls would be around you but your smile gave me the strength i needed.

i loved your smile seokjin i truly did.

are you still smiling?

yoongi laughed at that last part he asked such a stupid question of course seokjin was laughing why wouldn't he? after all he left happy while he was left unhappy.

that day our teacher decided we would have to do a project we could decide if we would do it alone or with a partner.
i knew i was going to do it alone i had no one here, as everyone walked around and grabbed their partner i looked down at the table tapping me pencil until a shadow interfered

"i'm working alone now go away"

i didn't even look up i didn't care

but then i heard your laugh

my cheeks were warm and i knew they were a dark pink

"seokjin i'm sorry i didn't mean to sound rude"

how was i suppose to live this through?

you instantly laughed and patted my head

"i'll forgive you in one condition"

"what's the condition?"

i was once again afraid which was new to me i didn't fear people but you? you had an effect on me and i hated it but i loved it.

"yoongi would you want to be my partner?"

i instantly became stiff was this a dream?

"um... but your friends?"

you looked back at them and looked at me

"well you're my friend too right? come on let's be partners it'll be fun."

i would be lying if i said that didn't hurt me, i wanted to be more than friends but if this was the only way to talk to you at least for a while i would take it so i agreed.

that was a mistake a huuge mistake.